Perfect love casts out fear + Life lately

Sunday, March 18, 2018

'Perfect love casts out fear'
My mom mentioned this Bible verse to me a couple days ago and it has stuck with me ever since then, I was freaking out and on the verge of tears and panicking, I had backed myself into a corner and was feeling hopeless.
After we talked I felt a bit better, later as I was falling asleep I kept thinking about that verse.

We get so wrapped up in the idea of perfection, chasing after our idea if it, blinded by our warped perspectives, twisted by the world's  impossible standards, just when you think you've got it right, someone's there to point out what you're doing wrong, just when you feel safe, you stumble across something else to be afraid of, this can go on forever and ever if we don't stop it. I think we get so wrapped up in this so called 'perfection' that we forget, and then are painfully reminded of again and again that we are just imperfect human beings living in an imperfect world.
But you know what? We're going to be okay, because in the midst of the messy world we live in there's a perfect God who's got it all figured out.
I think I realized then that only God is perfect, if achieving perfection in this world were even possible then we wouldn't need God, the beauty in our brokenness is that it can bring us so much closer to the One who loves us the most, who's perfect love casts out fear.
Things I've been loving
TALES OF GOLDSTONE WOOD I'm reading Shadow Hand right now and oh my goodness the complexity and the way it entertwines with the other books is blowing my little mind
Longer days, more sunlight, golden sunsets.
Flowers from trader joes even though the smell really weird XD
Smoothie bowls with homemade granola, especially cause it's getting warmer so smoothies in the morning don't leave me feeling miserably freezing cold
Trying new DIYS
Brainstorming for April Nano.

Can you relate at all to this? 
What is one thing you've been loving lately?

February Highlights

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

It's been such an awesome week so far, I had my last day of public speaking class on Monday and I got 100% on my ASL test, it was just one of those days where you feel like you have your life together, y,know? And yesterday we went to the park because it was over 50 degrees outside, the weather here has been absolutely gorgeous lately! I went for a walk in short sleeves and made lemon coconut cookies because I wanted to make something spring-y/

Anyway, February was fantastic, this month consisted of...

Reading a lot, I read almost three books, all of them from The Tales of Goldstone Wood  series, my sister has the first five books, I had read Heartless and Starflower because my sister read those ones, but I had never read any of the other ones in chronological order before, I think a little trouble reading them before, like I would start one but not really get into it, now I've been loving them more than any book series in a long time. THEY'RE SO BEAUTIFUL. Have any of you guys read them?

I had to sign a song and two Bible verses in ASL in front of a whole crowd of people as part of this class thing, it was nerve wracking but also kind of fun.

I (finally!!!) stopped biting my finger nails! Which is a really bad habit that I've had ever since I can remember, and it's gotten really bad and I realized that it was just unhealthy and I needed to stop. My nails are looking so much better and healthier now!

I switched bedrooms, (again!!) With so many younger siblings, we're always taking the opportunity to switch things around to find options that work for everyone, one of my brothers moved out last month, so my older sister moved into his old room and my younger sister and I ended up moving into her room, I was upset about having to move downstairs at first, but honestly I've really been liking it, we get tons of light during the day and it's a lot quieter too. XD

Making Valentines out of random artsy things I had laying around which actually ended up turning out super cute.

Finding a dress to wear to my brother's wedding this summer/ IT'S SO PRETTY AND FITS PERFECTLY AND I'M SO HAPPY.

Bringing my favorite pen to class because I couldn't find anything else and of course that had to be the one time that I lose a writing utensil in class. -_-

Baking, yoga, journaling, loving life.

Well, those are some of my highlights from this month. Tell me some of yours in the comments! Happy March everybody!

What I do to deal with stress + negative thoughts + just relax

Monday, February 12, 2018

 Life gets crazy sometimes, guys, it gets stressful and confusing and overwhelming, and sometimes everything is normal and fine yet for some reason my silly little brain convinces me it's not and I get myself frustrated and upset for no legitimate reason. <- (I'm getting better at not doing this) Anyway, lately this has been something I'm working on and trying to find ways to get better at dealing with, stress and negativity, whether it's from my own thoughts or from the people and things around me, I'm trying to find better and healthier ways to deal with it rather than lashing out at people or simply wallowing in it. (which just makes me feel miserable)

Doing yoga + exercising
Yoga is something I'm still pretty new to, and while I might not be as flexible or graceful or balanced as I'd like to be, I've found that just focusing on my breathing, clearing my thoughts and moving my body helps me to feel so refreshed and relaxed afterwards, when the weather is nice (and not 15 degrees and snowing outside like it's been lately) I like to go for walks but obviously that's a lot harder to do in the winter, so in addition to yoga (which takes a lot more strength than I originally realized) I've also been doing some strength workouts, starting pretty small with about 5-10 minutes, and wow even that leaves me sore the next day, but that's just part of being a beginner I guess, you start with what you can do before working your way up to harder things. and while I wouldn't exactly call working out relaxing, it definitely lifts my mood, makes me feel more energized and accomplished, and gives me something to focus on and new goals to work towards, plus, I'm doing something that is making me physically stronger too, which is definitely a good thing.

Keeping a journal 
I started a journal at the beginning of the year as place to keep track of my thoughts and record bits of my life somewhere other than on a blog, because honestly, not every little detail about my life needs to be plastered all over the internet. I've also been using it as a way to keep track of goals and other things, and I've really been loving it, filling a page with my thoughts while listening to music, or diffusing some essential oils, makes me feel so relaxed.

Just...breathe and pray about it. 
This is especially important when I'm angry, stressed, and letting negativity get the best of me, whatever I'm doing while I feel like this, I try to remind myself to take a deep breath and ask God to help me to not feel this way and to let go of my anger.

What do you do to deal with stress and negativity, or to just feel more relaxed? How is your Monday going so far? 

New Blog Design + Reasons To Not Hate Winter

Saturday, January 20, 2018

So, as you can see, I decided to re-design my blog this week! I liked my old design, but I was just looking to freshen things up a bit and I really like how it turned out, also, if any of you tried to view my blog during the past view days and found it blocked or whatever, that was because I purposefully made it private so I could take my time working on it and tweaking things, I didn't want you guys to have to see what a mess it was. ;)

Anyway, I don't know about you guys, but once we're in the middle of January, in the dead of winter, I find myself longingly daydreaming of summer, and, you know, I could sit here and list all the reasons I miss summer and why it's just so awesome but instead, I'm going to list 5 reasons to not hate winter! Because, unless you live somewhere were it doesn't get that cold, or a part of the world where it isn't summer right now, you're probably getting kind of sick of the cold and the wet. Like, after Christmas there's basically nothing exciting about winter. But I promise you there are some reasons to like, or at least not hate it.
1. A chance to work toward goals, no, not just because it's the first month of a new year and you probably set some sort of goal for yourself, but because there's usually not a whole lot going on in the winter. So while you're stuck inside and barely leaving the house, it can be a good time to work on things that you want to accomplish.
2. All the coziness. Like chai lattes, crocheted things, fuzzy socks, all the cozy things, even if that coziness is born out of a dire need to not freeze to death. None if it is going to sound nearly as appealing in the summer, so embrace it! Be happy where you are right now!
3. Catch up on reading/writing/DIY projects. Yes, I still like to do all these things no matter what time of year it is, but in the winter I'm a lot more likely to spend five hours reading a book. And trust me, I already have a list of DIY projects I want to try this summer, but there are so many things to try in the winter too! It can be easy to fall into a creative slump when everything is so dreary outside and not much is going on in life ,experiment with a type of art you've been wanting to try, sit down and brainstorm that one story idea that's been sitting in the back of your mind for ages, read that book that came out four months ago that you still haven't read yet. (or am I the only one who does that?) 

Any more reasons to not hate winter? What do you guys think of my new blog design? What is one awesome thing you're doing this weekend? HOW'S LIFE?

Vegan Baking 2#

Things I 've baked this month, chocolate granola and chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. 

FAREWELL 2017 + Goals

Sunday, December 31, 2017


Well, it probably will be by the time anyone reads this, currently, as I'm writing this it's a little over an hour until midnight. 

Oh my goodness, so much stuff happened this year! I've learned so much, laughed and cried and everything in between. Just, wow, guys. 
Anyway, I didn't set a whole lot of goals at the beginning of the year, but I wanted to go back and review the ones I did set. 

Read more  YES. I did end up reading more books than last year, which unfortunately didn't end up being a whole lot, but still. 

Edit my novel 'Contempt' *cough* *cough again cause I have a cold* We don't talk about that book, okay? 

Not quit blogging and connect with other bloggers more  I DIDN'T QUIT BLOGGING. As for connecting with other bloggers, I felt like I did a little better at making friends, but let's face it, even on the internet I'm still as much of an introvert as in real life. 

Start a new novel  TWO. One in July, (actually I guess that could technically be considered a novella since it was only 40k) and one in November. 

2018 Goals: 

Teach myself to worry less about things that don't matter and things that I know I don't need to worry about, and learn to give my fears over to God instead. 

Be nicer and more patient with my siblings. 

Read at least 50 books. 

Work on one  writing project throughout the year, take my time brainstorming, plotting, and writing and just go slow and enjoy the writing process more, I mean, pounding out an entire novel in one month is great and all, but who said it's the best way to write a book? To me, it's more like an an exercise, to teach yourself to be able to write faster, focus on just getting the words written and not worrying about it being perfect, and I have learned a lot from writing like that, but I want to try writing a book like this too. I might still set monthly writing goals or try to write more during the Camp Nano months, (if that counts) 

So, I hope 2017 was great for you guys, even with the rough spots and ups -and-downs, and I hope 2018 is full of epicness for you. <3



C H R I S T M A S + Impromptu Blogging Break

Sunday, December 24, 2017

I'm back after an impromptu blogging break due to the craziness of this month,just popping in quick  to wish you guys a beautiful Christmas. This past week has been super busy getting last-minute Christmas stuff done, and obviously doing tons of baking, (seriously my sister and I made three different kinds of cookies yesterday) we've also had this weird cold going around so I woke up this morning feeling kinda blegh, but I'm okay now. I'm totally looking forward to just chilling out and spending time with my family, eating cookies,  and watching The Nativity Story.  All the Christmasy things. ♥ ALSO IT'S SNOWING RIGHT NOW AFTER NOT SNOWING FOR A WEEK AND THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY.


"For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Savior, and He is Christ The Lord" Luke 2:11"