What I do to deal with stress + negative thoughts + just relax

Monday, February 12, 2018

 Life gets crazy sometimes, guys, it gets stressful and confusing and overwhelming, and sometimes everything is normal and fine yet for some reason my silly little brain convinces me it's not and I get myself frustrated and upset for no legitimate reason. <- (I'm getting better at not doing this) Anyway, lately this has been something I'm working on and trying to find ways to get better at dealing with, stress and negativity, whether it's from my own thoughts or from the people and things around me, I'm trying to find better and healthier ways to deal with it rather than lashing out at people or simply wallowing in it. (which just makes me feel miserable)

Doing yoga + exercising
Yoga is something I'm still pretty new to, and while I might not be as flexible or graceful or balanced as I'd like to be, I've found that just focusing on my breathing, clearing my thoughts and moving my body helps me to feel so refreshed and relaxed afterwards, when the weather is nice (and not 15 degrees and snowing outside like it's been lately) I like to go for walks but obviously that's a lot harder to do in the winter, so in addition to yoga (which takes a lot more strength than I originally realized) I've also been doing some strength workouts, starting pretty small with about 5-10 minutes, and wow even that leaves me sore the next day, but that's just part of being a beginner I guess, you start with what you can do before working your way up to harder things. and while I wouldn't exactly call working out relaxing, it definitely lifts my mood, makes me feel more energized and accomplished, and gives me something to focus on and new goals to work towards, plus, I'm doing something that is making me physically stronger too, which is definitely a good thing.

Keeping a journal 
I started a journal at the beginning of the year as place to keep track of my thoughts and record bits of my life somewhere other than on a blog, because honestly, not every little detail about my life needs to be plastered all over the internet. I've also been using it as a way to keep track of goals and other things, and I've really been loving it, filling a page with my thoughts while listening to music, or diffusing some essential oils, makes me feel so relaxed.

Just...breathe and pray about it. 
This is especially important when I'm angry, stressed, and letting negativity get the best of me, whatever I'm doing while I feel like this, I try to remind myself to take a deep breath and ask God to help me to not feel this way and to let go of my anger.

What do you do to deal with stress and negativity, or to just feel more relaxed? How is your Monday going so far? 

New Blog Design + Reasons To Not Hate Winter

Saturday, January 20, 2018

So, as you can see, I decided to re-design my blog this week! I liked my old design, but I was just looking to freshen things up a bit and I really like how it turned out, also, if any of you tried to view my blog during the past view days and found it blocked or whatever, that was because I purposefully made it private so I could take my time working on it and tweaking things, I didn't want you guys to have to see what a mess it was. ;)

Anyway, I don't know about you guys, but once we're in the middle of January, in the dead of winter, I find myself longingly daydreaming of summer, and, you know, I could sit here and list all the reasons I miss summer and why it's just so awesome but instead, I'm going to list 5 reasons to not hate winter! Because, unless you live somewhere were it doesn't get that cold, or a part of the world where it isn't summer right now, you're probably getting kind of sick of the cold and the wet. Like, after Christmas there's basically nothing exciting about winter. But I promise you there are some reasons to like, or at least not hate it.
1. A chance to work toward goals, no, not just because it's the first month of a new year and you probably set some sort of goal for yourself, but because there's usually not a whole lot going on in the winter. So while you're stuck inside and barely leaving the house, it can be a good time to work on things that you want to accomplish.
2. All the coziness. Like chai lattes, crocheted things, fuzzy socks, all the cozy things, even if that coziness is born out of a dire need to not freeze to death. None if it is going to sound nearly as appealing in the summer, so embrace it! Be happy where you are right now!
3. Catch up on reading/writing/DIY projects. Yes, I still like to do all these things no matter what time of year it is, but in the winter I'm a lot more likely to spend five hours reading a book. And trust me, I already have a list of DIY projects I want to try this summer, but there are so many things to try in the winter too! It can be easy to fall into a creative slump when everything is so dreary outside and not much is going on in life ,experiment with a type of art you've been wanting to try, sit down and brainstorm that one story idea that's been sitting in the back of your mind for ages, read that book that came out four months ago that you still haven't read yet. (or am I the only one who does that?) 

Any more reasons to not hate winter? What do you guys think of my new blog design? What is one awesome thing you're doing this weekend? HOW'S LIFE?

Vegan Baking 2#

Things I 've baked this month, chocolate granola and chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. 

FAREWELL 2017 + Goals

Sunday, December 31, 2017


Well, it probably will be by the time anyone reads this, currently, as I'm writing this it's a little over an hour until midnight. 

Oh my goodness, so much stuff happened this year! I've learned so much, laughed and cried and everything in between. Just, wow, guys. 
Anyway, I didn't set a whole lot of goals at the beginning of the year, but I wanted to go back and review the ones I did set. 

Read more  YES. I did end up reading more books than last year, which unfortunately didn't end up being a whole lot, but still. 

Edit my novel 'Contempt' *cough* *cough again cause I have a cold* We don't talk about that book, okay? 

Not quit blogging and connect with other bloggers more  I DIDN'T QUIT BLOGGING. As for connecting with other bloggers, I felt like I did a little better at making friends, but let's face it, even on the internet I'm still as much of an introvert as in real life. 

Start a new novel  TWO. One in July, (actually I guess that could technically be considered a novella since it was only 40k) and one in November. 

2018 Goals: 

Teach myself to worry less about things that don't matter and things that I know I don't need to worry about, and learn to give my fears over to God instead. 

Be nicer and more patient with my siblings. 

Read at least 50 books. 

Work on one  writing project throughout the year, take my time brainstorming, plotting, and writing and just go slow and enjoy the writing process more, I mean, pounding out an entire novel in one month is great and all, but who said it's the best way to write a book? To me, it's more like an an exercise, to teach yourself to be able to write faster, focus on just getting the words written and not worrying about it being perfect, and I have learned a lot from writing like that, but I want to try writing a book like this too. I might still set monthly writing goals or try to write more during the Camp Nano months, (if that counts) 

So, I hope 2017 was great for you guys, even with the rough spots and ups -and-downs, and I hope 2018 is full of epicness for you. <3



C H R I S T M A S + Impromptu Blogging Break

Sunday, December 24, 2017

I'm back after an impromptu blogging break due to the craziness of this month,just popping in quick  to wish you guys a beautiful Christmas. This past week has been super busy getting last-minute Christmas stuff done, and obviously doing tons of baking, (seriously my sister and I made three different kinds of cookies yesterday) we've also had this weird cold going around so I woke up this morning feeling kinda blegh, but I'm okay now. I'm totally looking forward to just chilling out and spending time with my family, eating cookies,  and watching The Nativity Story.  All the Christmasy things. ♥ ALSO IT'S SNOWING RIGHT NOW AFTER NOT SNOWING FOR A WEEK AND THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY.


"For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Savior, and He is Christ The Lord" Luke 2:11"


Merry & Bright + DECEMBER SO FAR

Friday, December 8, 2017

Christmas lights - It's finally snowing - Gingerbread spices - Lindsey Sterling Carol of The Bells  
December so far...
My sister and I decorated our room with two different kinds of lights, because we couldn't agree on one, so we compromised. XD Basically I decorated around my desk and the window with white lights and she used colored ones around her bed and dresser. 

WE PUT OUR TREE UP, after a quick expedition to the store to get more lights. I woke up the next morning to find it snowing. It's definitely starting to feel Christmas-y around here. 

Working on another speech for public speaking, we''re supposed to do one on a Bible verse this time, I ended up going with Proverbs 3:5, cause it's one of my favorites. (We also learned it in ASL so now I can sign it too!) I actually thought about signing it in my speech but figured that might be too hard to sign it and say it at the same time, because when you convert something to ASL it's usually not a word-for-word translation.

'Trust in THE LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding' Proverbs 3:5 

Do you like white, or colored lights better? 
What is one smell that reminds you of Christmas? 


NaNoWriMo 2017 Recap + How I Almost Quit + November Highlights

Thursday, November 30, 2017

NOVEMBER IS OVER, guys! but I'm feeling so thrilled right now because, one; I FINISHED NANOWRIMO, and two; IT'S ALMOST DECEMBER.

This month was so fantastic, writing a ton, general busy-ness, listening to a ton of music, (no surprise there)  and enjoying life in-between.

NANOWRIMO; What happened and what I learned...

I DID IT. EEEEP. I wrote more words today than I have all month, 4547, all before 2:00 PM. XD I set my alarm for 5:30 this morning and somehow slept through it, got up at 8:30 and started writing. AND THE WORDS JUST KEPT COMING SO FAST. 

Halfway though the month, I actually considered just, giving up. Not because I thought I couldn't finish in time, I knew that I could if I tried hard enough, but because I didn't even know if I wanted to. Basically, one really badly written scene had me frustrated and stressed out.And somehow I managed to convince myself that I hated my entire book and that it wasn't worth finishing. I tried to come up with all sorts of reasons for giving up, 'I don't like where the plot is going and I'm behind anyway'  and, 'it's not worth it' 

I even started to post about it, and then I realized how lame it sounded to just give up on something I set out to do for such a stupid reason. So you know what I did? I decided I was going to absolutely slay Nanowrimo even if my book turned out to be the messiest thing I had ever written. I wrote 3,000 words that night, that was when I finally started to go into full 'Nano-mode' and before I knew it my characters had gone rogue on me and taken over the book and suddenly I was writing up a storm.

I learned just how stubborn and unpredictable my characters are, how fast I can actually write when I'm not distracted, and what this book means to me, despite being a total mess.

So, long story short, I may have accidentally deleted all of my writing for the entire month. (which was only about 9,000 words at the time but still) And don't ask me how because I honestly have no idea how it happened, like I wasn't paying attention and accidentally pressed or clicked something but suddenly I had nothing but a blank document. Luckily since I write in Google Docs I was able to restore the document back to the former version of itself after some quick googling on WHAT THE HECK YOU DO AFTER ERASING AN ENTIRE DOCUMENT. 

So yes, even though Nano had me staying up into the dead of night, pounding out words and questioning my abilities as a writer, I PULLED THROUGH IT and actually wrote some pretty good stuff in between the messiness, it's those little gems that remind you why you're still writing. ♥

Other Lovely Things & Life Happenings...

Chai lattes ♥ I have a newfound appreciation for tea. Coffee makes me feel all weird and jittery, which I guess I didn't realize until I stopped drinking it for two months. Don't get me wrong, coffee is amazing, but I don't think I'm going to go back to drinking it everyday.

Bought lights to hang up in my room which I am so excited to decorate for Christmas. 

Unusually warm weather, which I like and dislike at the same time because.  it's warm enough to go for walks which is awesome, but I kind of secretly want it to snow.

Saw NEEDTOBREATHE live in concert which was epic.

Made a vegan pumpkin pie for Thanksgiving, it turned out delicious.

My sister and I re-arrainged our room so my desk is now in the corner where her dresser used to be, (which is completely irrelevant if you've never seen my room before) but anyway, my desk is now in the brightest corner of the room which makes me super happy. (And for some reason it feels like there's more space?)

I had to give a speech for public speaking class, in front of my entire class + some people's parents including my mom. I felt like a trainwreck as I walked up in front of everyone, even though I wasn't nervous at all before that. Apparently I'm a really fast talker, and talk even faster when I'm nervous? Most people thought I needed to talk slower even though I really tried not to talk too fast. It doesn't help that I didn't really practice a lot beforehand either. BUT SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN NANO AND HOMEWORK AND YOU CHOOSE NANO. 

November was a blast for me, and I hope it was for you guys too, I'm totally looking forward to next month, taking a break from writing for a little, and having time to focus on other things. 

Bring it on, December. ♥