Loving and living life + Struggles

Sunday, May 6, 2018

craving allll the smoothies lately, posted the recipe for this green smoothie on my Instagram

Spontaneous art projects, baby succulents, (!!!!!)  long walks and spending time alone with God,  wearing sandals, blasting music, laughing, finishing a book that took me a month to read, (Golden Daughter by Anne Elisabeth Stengl, only one book left in the series that I haven't read)

You might be sad, or angry, at the world, the people around you or yourself, you may not know why you feel the way you do, or you wonder if the things you're struggling with are ever going to get better, but listen, you cannot let your struggles make you forget that there is a God who's got you covered and will never, ever let you go.

I think of myself as generally a pretty positive person, on this blog I try to be mostly positive (don't we all?) but I also try to be open and honest, because life is never perfect, and some times it's to not get weighed down by the negativity, sometimes it's hard to not get so wrapped up in your negative thoughts and emotions that you forget what's true and real and good. 
I might let myself think negative thoughts sometimes, I might break down crying for no real reason, I might tell myself people don't care about me when that is so not true. I don't always know why I feel the way I do, but I've decided I'm not going to let that dictate my life, I'm going to work on this, especially when there are better things to focus on and there is so much good in this world. 



Friday, April 27, 2018

I've got dirt on my fingers and wind in my hair and I'm feeling very much alive today. 

Spring is happening and I'm so excited

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Breath deep the sunshine, early mornings and iced coffee, flowers growing, cute shoes, bright colors. 
Yesterday I realized how much I missed taking pictures outdoors, my hoodie and shoes matched perfectlly. we went to go see butterflies and walk around outside, and I'm still finding inspiration everywhere I go. 

Making time for what you love + My April Camp Nano 2018 project

Monday, April 2, 2018

Camp Nano is upon us, friends!

I'm definitely no expert on time management, and don't even get me started on accomplishing getting things done in an organized and linear manner. (hint; it doesn't happen) I'm working on it, but one thing I do know is that we're all busy, but that shouldn't stop us from doing amazing things and accomplishing our goals, and I realize how cliche that might sound, but it's true!
I think one of the things that can sometimes hold us back is that we let ourselves believe that just because we don't have time for everything means we don't have time for anything. Which is totally not the case!
Yes, you're probably busy, yes you have a whole list of things you need to do, so do I!

So the question is, how do we balance writing with other responsibilities like school/work/self-care/life ect?

I do think it's important to prioritize and figure out what's important to you / what needs to get done and when, figuring out how much time to spend on certain things, figuring out how much free time you have in a day. Take it one day at a time, don't stress too much, make lists.

I've heard about some people setting time goals for their writing instead of word goals, like 30 hours instead of 30,000 words in a month. I was kind of skeptical of this at first, but the more I thought about it I realized it could actually be pretty helpful, especially if you're trying to manage your time properly and maybe don't have a ton of time to write. (I definitely have a lot more free time to write than some people and I realize I probably shouldn't take this for granted

Also, I am totally not judging anyone who is taking a break from blogging or anything else this month in order to dedicate their time to writing, because I totally understand how while managing multiple things at once is possible, it can be overwhelming, and sometimes it's easier to completely dedicate your time to just one thing rather than doing a whole bunch of things half-heartedly, it's up to you to decide what's best for you and how you prioritize your time.

You can do the thing, I believe in you. <3

As promised, I thought I'd share a bit about my current writing project, I'm working on a novella that takes place within the Christian-fantasy trilogy that I'm going to be editing/rewriting this summer, why a novella? Because 30k feels like a pretty realistic word goal for this month and the story didn't really feel like it could be novel length, but you never know.

'Despite her newfound hope, Aryn is still struggling to escape a past that has left scars on her heart forever.
When she is accidentally wounded in the Forest of Mythian, Aryn wakes to find she has no memory beyond those last few moments spent in the forest, she finds herself in a village guarded by fierce but peaceful warriors, eventually she begins to grow close to the people of the village, finding a sense of purpose and belonging that she knows she has never felt anywhere before despite having no memories. 
Only the past comes back to haunt her, darker and more destructive than ever before. 
Aryn is faced with a decision, leave everything she has ever known behind and follow this new path, or acknowledge all the shame, the fear, the scars, but also the life and love and hope that comes with it?' 

That is just a quick little blurb I typed up, but hopefully you get the idea, my main character has her own story prior to this novella, and she's struggling with stuff from her past, but then she loses her memory, and a whole bunch of stuff happens and then things get really deep. 

I'm horribly awful at explaining story ideas, let alone badly plotted ones, but to be fair this story idea hit me out of nowhere so here I am writing it and seeing what happens. 

How do you manage your time? 


March Highlights

Thursday, March 29, 2018

So March is just, pretty much gone, and I'm okay with that, anyway, here are some of my highlights from this month.
A little bit of life in March: 

First of all, I came to the conclusion that March is pretty much the ugliest month of the entire year. I'm sorry but it's true, hence why all the pictures I've taken recently have been inside, I'm not complaining though because my indoor photography skills have definitely improved if I do say so myself.

Going back to writing class, I only have a few weeks to write and edit a 4-6 page research paper (!!!!) so I'd better get to work, my teacher told us "Procrastionation is not your friend with a project of this type" As if procrastinating is ever  a good idea.

My mom told me I should look into beekeeping because she thinks it's something I would be good at, and now I'm actually seriously considering it.

Spontaneously deciding to do April Camp Nano, which I'm not going to go too in detail about because I've got a whole post about it coming up soon!

My Spotify playlist, which I have ambiguously labeled 'Feels' is becoming the most misorganized variety of mish-mashed songs ever, problem? I don't think so.

What's up with you guys? Are you doing April Camp Nano? Are you making plans for summer? Have you read any exeedingly outstanding books that gave you all the feels? 

Perfect love casts out fear + Life lately

Sunday, March 18, 2018

'Perfect love casts out fear'
My mom mentioned this Bible verse to me a couple days ago and it has stuck with me ever since then, I was freaking out and on the verge of tears and panicking, I had backed myself into a corner and was feeling hopeless.
After we talked I felt a bit better, later as I was falling asleep I kept thinking about that verse.

We get so wrapped up in the idea of perfection, chasing after our idea if it, blinded by our warped perspectives, twisted by the world's  impossible standards, just when you think you've got it right, someone's there to point out what you're doing wrong, just when you feel safe, you stumble across something else to be afraid of, this can go on forever and ever if we don't stop it. I think we get so wrapped up in this so called 'perfection' that we forget, and then are painfully reminded of again and again that we are just imperfect human beings living in an imperfect world.
But you know what? We're going to be okay, because in the midst of the messy world we live in there's a perfect God who's got it all figured out.
I think I realized then that only God is perfect, if achieving perfection in this world were even possible then we wouldn't need God, the beauty in our brokenness is that it can bring us so much closer to the One who loves us the most, who's perfect love casts out fear.
Things I've been loving
TALES OF GOLDSTONE WOOD I'm reading Shadow Hand right now and oh my goodness the complexity and the way it entertwines with the other books is blowing my little mind
Longer days, more sunlight, golden sunsets.
Flowers from trader joes even though the smell really weird XD
Smoothie bowls with homemade granola, especially cause it's getting warmer so smoothies in the morning don't leave me feeling miserably freezing cold
Trying new DIYS
Brainstorming for April Nano.

Can you relate at all to this? 
What is one thing you've been loving lately?

February Highlights

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

It's been such an awesome week so far, I had my last day of public speaking class on Monday and I got 100% on my ASL test, it was just one of those days where you feel like you have your life together, y,know? And yesterday we went to the park because it was over 50 degrees outside, the weather here has been absolutely gorgeous lately! I went for a walk in short sleeves and made lemon coconut cookies because I wanted to make something spring-y/

Anyway, February was fantastic, this month consisted of...

Reading a lot, I read almost three books, all of them from The Tales of Goldstone Wood  series, my sister has the first five books, I had read Heartless and Starflower because my sister read those ones, but I had never read any of the other ones in chronological order before, I think a little trouble reading them before, like I would start one but not really get into it, now I've been loving them more than any book series in a long time. THEY'RE SO BEAUTIFUL. Have any of you guys read them?

I had to sign a song and two Bible verses in ASL in front of a whole crowd of people as part of this class thing, it was nerve wracking but also kind of fun.

I (finally!!!) stopped biting my finger nails! Which is a really bad habit that I've had ever since I can remember, and it's gotten really bad and I realized that it was just unhealthy and I needed to stop. My nails are looking so much better and healthier now!

I switched bedrooms, (again!!) With so many younger siblings, we're always taking the opportunity to switch things around to find options that work for everyone, one of my brothers moved out last month, so my older sister moved into his old room and my younger sister and I ended up moving into her room, I was upset about having to move downstairs at first, but honestly I've really been liking it, we get tons of light during the day and it's a lot quieter too. XD

Making Valentines out of random artsy things I had laying around which actually ended up turning out super cute.

Finding a dress to wear to my brother's wedding this summer/ IT'S SO PRETTY AND FITS PERFECTLY AND I'M SO HAPPY.

Bringing my favorite pen to class because I couldn't find anything else and of course that had to be the one time that I lose a writing utensil in class. -_-

Baking, yoga, journaling, loving life.

Well, those are some of my highlights from this month. Tell me some of yours in the comments! Happy March everybody!