Friday, December 8, 2017

Merry & Bright + DECEMBER SO FAR

Christmas lights - It's finally snowing - Gingerbread spices - Lindsey Sterling Carol of The Bells  
December so far...
My sister and I decorated our room with two different kinds of lights, because we couldn't agree on one, so we compromised. XD Basically I decorated around my desk and the window with white lights and she used colored ones around her bed and dresser. 

WE PUT OUR TREE UP, after a quick expedition to the store to get more lights. I woke up the next morning to find it snowing. It's definitely starting to feel Christmas-y around here. 

Working on another speech for public speaking, we''re supposed to do one on a Bible verse this time, I ended up going with Proverbs 3:5, cause it's one of my favorites. (We also learned it in ASL so now I can sign it too!) I actually thought about signing it in my speech but figured that might be too hard to sign it and say it at the same time, because when you convert something to ASL it's usually not a word-for-word translation.

'Trust in THE LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding' Proverbs 3:5 

Do you like white, or colored lights better? 
What is one smell that reminds you of Christmas? 


Thursday, November 30, 2017

NaNoWriMo 2017 Recap + How I Almost Quit + November Highlights

NOVEMBER IS OVER, guys! but I'm feeling so thrilled right now because, one; I FINISHED NANOWRIMO, and two; IT'S ALMOST DECEMBER.

This month was so fantastic, writing a ton, general busy-ness, listening to a ton of music, (no surprise there)  and enjoying life in-between.

NANOWRIMO; What happened and what I learned...

I DID IT. EEEEP. I wrote more words today than I have all month, 4547, all before 2:00 PM. XD I set my alarm for 5:30 this morning and somehow slept through it, got up at 8:30 and started writing. AND THE WORDS JUST KEPT COMING SO FAST. 

Halfway though the month, I actually considered just, giving up. Not because I thought I couldn't finish in time, I knew that I could if I tried hard enough, but because I didn't even know if I wanted to. Basically, one really badly written scene had me frustrated and stressed out.And somehow I managed to convince myself that I hated my entire book and that it wasn't worth finishing. I tried to come up with all sorts of reasons for giving up, 'I don't like where the plot is going and I'm behind anyway'  and, 'it's not worth it' 

I even started to post about it, and then I realized how lame it sounded to just give up on something I set out to do for such a stupid reason. So you know what I did? I decided I was going to absolutely slay Nanowrimo even if my book turned out to be the messiest thing I had ever written. I wrote 3,000 words that night, that was when I finally started to go into full 'Nano-mode' and before I knew it my characters had gone rogue on me and taken over the book and suddenly I was writing up a storm.

I learned just how stubborn and unpredictable my characters are, how fast I can actually write when I'm not distracted, and what this book means to me, despite being a total mess.

So, long story short, I may have accidentally deleted all of my writing for the entire month. (which was only about 9,000 words at the time but still) And don't ask me how because I honestly have no idea how it happened, like I wasn't paying attention and accidentally pressed or clicked something but suddenly I had nothing but a blank document. Luckily since I write in Google Docs I was able to restore the document back to the former version of itself after some quick googling on WHAT THE HECK YOU DO AFTER ERASING AN ENTIRE DOCUMENT. 

So yes, even though Nano had me staying up into the dead of night, pounding out words and questioning my abilities as a writer, I PULLED THROUGH IT and actually wrote some pretty good stuff in between the messiness, it's those little gems that remind you why you're still writing. ♥

Other Lovely Things & Life Happenings...

Chai lattes ♥ I have a newfound appreciation for tea. Coffee makes me feel all weird and jittery, which I guess I didn't realize until I stopped drinking it for two months. Don't get me wrong, coffee is amazing, but I don't think I'm going to go back to drinking it everyday.

Bought lights to hang up in my room which I am so excited to decorate for Christmas. 

Unusually warm weather, which I like and dislike at the same time because.  it's warm enough to go for walks which is awesome, but I kind of secretly want it to snow.

Saw NEEDTOBREATHE live in concert which was epic.

Made a vegan pumpkin pie for Thanksgiving, it turned out delicious.

My sister and I re-arrainged our room so my desk is now in the corner where her dresser used to be, (which is completely irrelevant if you've never seen my room before) but anyway, my desk is now in the brightest corner of the room which makes me super happy. (And for some reason it feels like there's more space?)

I had to give a speech for public speaking class, in front of my entire class + some people's parents including my mom. I felt like a trainwreck as I walked up in front of everyone, even though I wasn't nervous at all before that. Apparently I'm a really fast talker, and talk even faster when I'm nervous? Most people thought I needed to talk slower even though I really tried not to talk too fast. It doesn't help that I didn't really practice a lot beforehand either. BUT SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN NANO AND HOMEWORK AND YOU CHOOSE NANO. 

November was a blast for me, and I hope it was for you guys too, I'm totally looking forward to next month, taking a break from writing for a little, and having time to focus on other things. 

Bring it on, December. ♥ 

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Why Perfect Isn't Worth It + Thankfulness

I was originally planning on posting about Nano this week, but since Thanksgiving is this tomorrow and thankfulness coincides with the other topic I wanted to post about, I ended up writing a super long and ramble-ey post yesterday, and then managed to condense it down to all the actually important stuff.

Lately I've been thinking about the idea of 'perfection'  you know me, whether on this little piece of the internet, in real life, or both, you may know that I've struggled  struggle with perfectionism. Comparing myself to others, being overly critical about everything I do, sometimes I feel like there's something in my mind that wants to find something wrong with everything I'm doing. And that's no way to live.

There are a lot of things that want to be good at, things I want to do right, even if I'm necessarily comparing what I do directly to someone else, heck, most of the time I compare myself to myself. Don't ask, it's a weird place inside my head. *shakes head* Some of the main things I still struggle with are photography, I can be so critical with myself about the photos I take, (the fact that the exact same photo will look different on my computer than on my phone) Blogging, writing, (even though I've gotten more confident as I've developed my own style, and I know I know I still have lots to improve)

How I think thankfulness > perfectionism....

- Being thankful for the way things are , rather than always wishing they were different and refusing to allow yourself to be happy until things are 'perfect' which, news flash, will be never. We throw around the word 'perfect' like it's a real thing, when is reality, there is no such thing as perfect. 

- But that doesn't mean you can never improve, being thankful for all of your accomplishments, for all the things that have already been improved and can get better, when you start to focus on the negative things, it can get really easy to lose sight of that.

- Because life is too short to be worrying all the time, in the end, perfectionism just isn't worth it. Don't spend all your time being afraid of making mistakes, just live. 

Some things I'm thankful for...

- I mean, obviously I'm thankful for Jesus. ♥

- I'm thankful that I live in a family that's so open to adoption, having a big family and homeschooling. I don't think I've ever wished that I had less siblings, even if it gets crazy around here sometimes, BECAUSE LIFE WOULD BE BORING WITHOUT A LITTLE INSANITY.

- BOOKS. ♥ Because sometimes you need a portal to another world, whether it's one that you're reading or one that you're writings. Books are the greatest.

- MUSIC. ALL THE FEELS. ALL THE GLORIOUS INSPIRATION. Also I'm so excited about Christmas music right now. 

I'm thankful for the places I haven't seen yet, books I haven't read yet, songs I've never heard, pictures I've never taken, they give me things to daydream and get excited about.

- The handful of people who read this blog, who take the time to comment and share thoughts. You guys mean so much to me. ♥

Happy Thanksgiving! ♥ 

Sunday, November 12, 2017

What I Did This Weekend + Concerts + Vegan Baking

Hey guys! I hope you all had an awesome weekend, because I totally did,  (even though it was freezing cold and almost snowed) 

First of all, I WENT TO A NEEDTOBREATHE CONCERT, which was totally last minute, I had heard that they were going to be playing near us this month, but I figured it'd be too expensive or I wouldn't be able to find anyone to go with,  and they were almost sold out so I thought it might be too late anyway, but I finally asked my dad and we ended up buying tickets the night before the concert. 

The concert was awesome, the coolest part though? About halfway though the concert, mid-song, security comes to the back of the crowd where we were standing and starts asking people to move back,  and then they bring out a platform with spotlights and then the lead singer comes and stands on it AND SINGS RIGHT NEXT TO US. 

Like literally right there, my dad got this photo, not zoomed in or cropped or anything. It was awesome. 
So basically I'm broke right now because I spent all my money on a concert ticket,  but it was totally worth it. 

Oh yeah, I also made vegan chocolate chip cookies, because, one;  I wanted cookies, and two; I'm trying to prove to my family that you can make veganized versions of things that still taste good,  and I was totally right. They didn't taste overly-health-ified or anything like that. Even though they were made with healthier ingredients, but the fact that they were still full of chocolate probably helped with that.

Do you like NEEDTOBREATHE? Have you been to any concerts this year? 

Saturday, November 4, 2017

NANO 2017 WEEK ONE + Sunlight & Fall Photos

*photo credits go to my epic sister and her fantastic photography skills. <3 

Four days into Nanowrimo and I haven't consumed an ounce of caffeine, for those of you who fear my have every reason to be concerned. XD Fear not though, I shall shortly seek out some source of caffeine, preferably in the form of vegan dark chocolate. XD

Writing is actually going pretty good so far! I didn't start at midnight or write 5K on the first day like last time, (which I ended up completely cutting out anyway and was still able to meet my goal, so I'm not too worried about falling behind right now) I'm writing the third book in the trilogy I started exactly a year ago, (I wrote the first book last year for Nanowrimo and the second one for Camp Nano in July) it's just an itty bitty trilogy since so far each book is only 50-40k, that could change with editing though, (which I'm actually looking forward to because everything is a mess but I already have quite a few ideas for how I could improve everything) Hopefully I'll be able to share a bit more about that in the future, (y,know, when the entire plot actually makes sense) 

And as you can see above, I dragged my sister, (not really but, y,know) outside to take some pictures because it was absolutely gorgeous out for one day out of the entire week and she had the day off so it was pretty much the perfect time to do it.

On another note I feel like my blogging has really been lacking a lot these past few weeks, but I'm that kinda picks up this month with writing and Nano and all that, which = more inspiration for blog posts. See you guys soon!

How is Nano going so far? Are you treating your characters kindly? (of course not because we're writers and it's our job to torture characters) 


Monday, October 23, 2017

For real though, who's doing Nanowrimo?

I have been meaning to write a blogpost for over a week now, either I ended up distracted or realized I could be working on other things instead or just couldn't find the words, BUT THE WORDS ARE ALWAYS THERE, SPINNING AROUND IN MY HEAD, it's just so hard to capture a handful of them and organize them into coherent sentences, you feel me?

Anyways, I'm here now. I spent the past week soaking up all the totally gorgeous fall weather before it went back to being rainy and cold and bleck, (It's been raining all dayworking on spontaneous DIY projects, enjoying not having to write any more essays for writing class because we're done for the first quarter, (I have speech class next, which I kinda have mixed feeling about) and of course plotting for Nano in my own haphazardly misorganized manner that likely makes sense to no one but myself.

I'm really excited for Nanowrimo this year, but I can't help but feeling kind of...I dunno, lonely? It seems like most of the people I did it with last year are either saying they don't have time or haven't decided yet if they're doing it or not.
And I get it, not everyone has time to write 50,000 words in a month, and November is already busy enough as it is for most people, but I can't be the only one who was just like; "Heck yeah I'm doing Nano even though it's hard and life is busy and my novel is going to be a mess BECAUSE NANO IS AWESOME THAT'S WHY" << not that those were my exact thoughts, but you get the idea.
I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad, I just feel like hardly anyone I know is doing Nano this year which makes me kind of sad.

So yeah, those are just some of my thoughts for today, maybe you're not doing Nano this year for whatever reasons, maybe life is too hectic or your characters are angry at you, or maybe you are, and you're just as excited as I am to plunge into a brand new story and take on this month of craziness??? Because if so we should totally team up and conquer Nano together.


Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Hello, October. ♥

Helloooo, and no, before anyone asks I did not mean to almost completely abandon blogging these past few month, moving on now. XD Stepping into a brand new month, October to be exact, feels both chaotic and calming all at once, if you know what I mean, if not, lemme explain. 

Calming; Because we've survived another insane month, because something about the anticipation of  autumn is so inevitably tranquil and cozy and yet also thrilling and inspiring all at once, and just feels so full of possibilities, and this is what it's like to be a daydreamer when seasons change and I'm pretty sure October is one of my favorite months. Somehow autumn just seems so much more chill than summer, Y,know?

Chaotic: Because this month, these mere four weeks are the only thing standing between me and Nanowrimo and I'm pretty sure the only plotting I've done, (other than mental plotting) is scattered amongst index cards across my desk. Oh yeah, and adding to my extensive playlist for this trilogy because so many feels, because classes and homework and school have been keeping me super busy, but being productive makes me feel good.

What I Did Last Month: 
- I started reading Jane Eyre for writing class, decided I want to become fluent in ASL, and worked on catching up on math, I also already feel like my writing is really improving, I never wanted to take a writing class before because I always thought 'Pssh, I already know all about writing' Of course, Hannah, because being a writer for 4 years means you automatically know everything there possibly is to know. *facepalm* 

- Excessively daydreamed about my Nano novel which, if I haven't mentioned already, I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR. Writing has been kind of dormant since July, so I'm actually looking forward to the craziness of Nanowrimo, (and definitely not scared at all like why would you even ask me that.)

- Basically, if I tried to list everything else that happened in September this post would probably end up being a lot longer, but I wanted to keep things short and simple for you guys.

- Also, ahem, I haven't had coffee in about a month, NOT because I don't like coffee though! Trust me, I  do, but long story short, I wanted to see if not drinking so much caffeine would help with anxiety, and I think it's actually been helping? Don't worry though, I'm not swearing off coffee forever. XD

What I'm Doing Next Month: 

- Hopefully catching up on blogging, and on all you guy's lovely blogs, BECAUSE YES I'M STILL BLOGGING AND YES YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME.

- Catching up on a lot of school, apparently. XP

- Getting some actual novel plotting done, not because I'm worried about getting stuck next month, because here's the thing, I don't get stuck, if I start a story with a vague idea as to where the plot is going, I can keep writing from there, all the way to the end, but what happens is things kind of start taking a cringey/poorly-plotted/downright weird turn in the middle, and I really don't want that to happen with this book.

- Probably a lot of other things I didn't mention here.

So yeah, I hope that vague life-update didn't bore you guys too much, XD  *scurries off to read because I only have the rest of the week left to finish Jane Eyre* 

So tell me, what's your favorite month? What book have you been reading right now? Actually, feel free to just tell me all the things.