Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Hello, October. ♥

Helloooo, and no, before anyone asks I did not mean to almost completely abandon blogging these past few month, moving on now. XD Stepping into a brand new month, October to be exact, feels both chaotic and calming all at once, if you know what I mean, if not, lemme explain. 

Calming; Because we've survived another insane month, because something about the anticipation of  autumn is so inevitably tranquil and cozy and yet also thrilling and inspiring all at once, and just feels so full of possibilities, and this is what it's like to be a daydreamer when seasons change and I'm pretty sure October is one of my favorite months. Somehow autumn just seems so much more chill than summer, Y,know?

Chaotic: Because this month, these mere four weeks are the only thing standing between me and Nanowrimo and I'm pretty sure the only plotting I've done, (other than mental plotting) is scattered amongst index cards across my desk. Oh yeah, and adding to my extensive playlist for this trilogy because so many feels, because classes and homework and school have been keeping me super busy, but being productive makes me feel good.

What I Did Last Month: 
- I started reading Jane Eyre for writing class, decided I want to become fluent in ASL, and worked on catching up on math, I also already feel like my writing is really improving, I never wanted to take a writing class before because I always thought 'Pssh, I already know all about writing' Of course, Hannah, because being a writer for 4 years means you automatically know everything there possibly is to know. *facepalm* 

- Excessively daydreamed about my Nano novel which, if I haven't mentioned already, I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR. Writing has been kind of dormant since July, so I'm actually looking forward to the craziness of Nanowrimo, (and definitely not scared at all like why would you even ask me that.)

- Basically, if I tried to list everything else that happened in September this post would probably end up being a lot longer, but I wanted to keep things short and simple for you guys.

- Also, ahem, I haven't had coffee in about a month, NOT because I don't like coffee though! Trust me, I  do, but long story short, I wanted to see if not drinking so much caffeine would help with anxiety, and I think it's actually been helping? Don't worry though, I'm not swearing off coffee forever. XD

What I'm Doing Next Month: 

- Hopefully catching up on blogging, and on all you guy's lovely blogs, BECAUSE YES I'M STILL BLOGGING AND YES YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME.

- Catching up on a lot of school, apparently. XP

- Getting some actual novel plotting done, not because I'm worried about getting stuck next month, because here's the thing, I don't get stuck, if I start a story with a vague idea as to where the plot is going, I can keep writing from there, all the way to the end, but what happens is things kind of start taking a cringey/poorly-plotted/downright weird turn in the middle, and I really don't want that to happen with this book.

- Probably a lot of other things I didn't mention here.

So yeah, I hope that vague life-update didn't bore you guys too much, XD  *scurries off to read because I only have the rest of the week left to finish Jane Eyre* 

So tell me, what's your favorite month? What book have you been reading right now? Actually, feel free to just tell me all the things.


Sunday, September 10, 2017

L A T E L Y + (In which I straighten my priorities)

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE. Feeling super hyped right now and I'm not quite sure if that's because of all the coffee I drank or the green smoothie or both. Probably both. XD Anyway, September has been crazy so far because life is pretty much always crazy.

L A T E L Y ; 

- Camping in a cabin in the woods with my dad and younger siblings, several hours North from where we live, driving on rainy roads through forests, breathtaking sand dunes, absolutely no Wi-fi to be found. 

- Getting ready for some classes I'm going to be taking this year, ASL and Highschool Writing and Speech. Starting next week, super excited. (except for the fact that my mom forgot to order my ASL book but hopefully I can get away with not having it for the very first class XD) 

- IT'S ACTUALLY GETTING COLD HERE AND STARTING TO FEEL LIKE FALL (despite the rather summery looking pic I took at the sand dunes, trust me, it was cold

- Feeling like my mind is trying to be in a million places at once. Well, obviously not that many, BUT DOES ANYONE ELSE JUST OVERWHELM THEMSELVES SOMETIMES WITH TRYING TO THINK ABOUT ALL THE THINGS. 

- I've been 'getting my life together' for like the past several months now, yesterday I wrote out a list of my priorities and goals and basically everything I'd like to accomplish within this month and the next and I am determined to stick to it.

So this was just a sort of casually-thrown-together 'this is what's going on in life right now post' I do have some more posts planned for this month but I just wanted to chat with you guys, has September been busy for you so far? What are one of your goals for this month? Have you ever been camping without Wi-Fi? 


Thursday, August 31, 2017

Highlights of A U G U S T + I Don't Even Know Where Summer Is Going...

What? No of course I haven't been hiding, not from blogging anyways, from my responsibilities? *glances over shoulder* Perhaps. 

JK you guys. XD Mostly anyways, I'm trying not to dwell over feeling like I didn't accomplish enough this month, instead I'm going to focus on the positive and embrace September. 

So yeah, August, I worked on finishing my Camp Nano novel and plotting for November, we celebrated Emily's birthday which was also on the same day as the solar eclipse which you could barely see from where we were. :| Daydreaming about fall, sleeping in a lot, just living life. XD 


Cool walks at sunset, waking up and, for just a moment, fearing that outside has turned black and white.  cold, rainy, dismal mornings. 

Books that blow your mind because it seems like they were written just for you, speaking words to you you didn't even realize you absolutely needed to hear.

When dogs are super excited to say hi to you. 

NEEDTOBREATHE, TFK, and Lindsey Sterling 

Trying to be more patient, more positive, trying to love more. 

Complete & Utter Randomness 

I made vegan chocolate banana bread AND IT ACTUALLY TASTED GOOD (and no I'm not vegan the recipe just happened to be vegan XD) 

My phone charger breaking for unexplained reasons, the speakers on my computer randomly flipping out, taking my camera with me on a walk but forgetting my camera card and basically all of the technology struggles. 

When attempting new hairstyle ends up involving braiding your hair under your chin like a dwarf beard and the trying to flip it over your head and then half the braid coming undone in the process. XP

Walking in to my room about to go to bed and finding Emily sleeping face-down on the floor with the light on.

Going for a walk and ending up being gone so long my mom was worried I got kidnapped or something, (I was kinda just wandering around the neighborhood and exploring places I never had before)

My dad accidentally set our oven on fire and the house smelled like smoke for hours.

Painfully tripping over a puppy and falling on the kitchen floor. (the puppy was okay, I was sort of okay but ouch. XP)

Holding a grudge against a rodent (ahem, caviomorpth) BECAUSE I LEARNED DEGUS BITE RIDICULOUSLY HARD.(Emily has one nice degu and one nasty one)

Realizing I pretty much ALWAYS have a song stuck in my head, it's like my own background music or something. XD Anyone else have this?

Writing and Blogging 

I think the fact that I just sat here for a really long time not knowing what to say about this kind of says enough. 

Alright so you know those plot bunnies that sneak in and burrow into your imagination AND YOU TRY TO GET RID OF THEM but they're just so innocent looking and you can't seem to get rid of them and then before you know it you've named them and you're attached to them and boom that's where story ideas come from. XD


 (And actually, I made no real attempt to get rid of the plot bunny, I did decide I'm not writing that story idea for Nanowrimo though and instead going to go with something I have more ideas for) 

Blogging was really quiet for me this month, I managed to touch up some design stuff and also successfully film a vlog but that was pretty much it other than brainstorming future post ideas. 

So that was my month, not all of it but what I decided to cram into this post anyways, tell me, what is one of the most exciting things that happened to you this month? See you guys soon! ♥ 


Wednesday, August 16, 2017

The Q&A Questions: Answered + Vlog + FIRST TIME FLYING

I promised a vlog, so I filmed you guys a vlog. XD A full eight minutes of my face (which no one exactly  needed to see but whatever) And the answers to all of you guy's awesome questions for this spontaneous Q&A.

(Also I somehow got confused and thought Monday was supposed to be the 15th? But oh well, these past couple days ended up being pretty busy for us anyway)

Here you gooooo. *points down below*

Also YES I GOT TO FLY FOR THE FIRST TIME. My mom and I flew down South last weekend, I told you guys my parents were planning on adopting again, so yup, my sister is home now and things have been pretty interesting so far, she's the first older girl with special needs my parents have adopted, (my two other sisters were still pretty little when they brought them home) So yeah. she's super sweet though.

 AND I GOT SOME TRAVEL EXPERIENCE SO YAY, like it's so weird how you can be across the country in like 1.5 hours. XP. (Also, Airport experience which was also pretty interesting)

Soooo yes hope you guys enjoyed the video! ♥

Have you ever flown before?
Ever gotten lost in an airport? (I didn't but I'm just curious XD) 


Thursday, August 10, 2017

LET'S DO A Q&A + All The Questions Wanted Please

Sooo, I've been wanting to do another vlog-type-thing for a while now ever since my first attempt back in January, ("Oh, you mean the one where you broke down crying before even filming the video?") ahem, yes, that one. Because obviously I can do better than that and hopefully my confidence and video-ing skills have improved since then. So I decided to do a Q&A because I like how interactive they are and frankly I'm not quite sure what I'd vlog about otherwise. XD So yes, shoot me some questions down below if you'd like, and I'll be back on Monday the 15th to answer them all!

Do you prefer doing videos, watching them, or both? 
Any questions? XD


Monday, July 31, 2017

Highlights of J U L Y + Honestly, Where Do I Begin?

Woah, woah, woah, what happened this month? What didn't happen this month? July was packed with absolute craziness for me. blogging and writing picked up a lot, I spent so much time outside and listened to a whole lot of music. Brace yourselves guys cause this is gonna be a looonnng post. XD


My 15th birthday happened and it was awesome. posted about it here

I WROTE A BOOK THIS MONTH. But we'll get to that in a minute. XD 

Guys, I seriously don't deserve the people who tolerate my insanity on a regular basis, the people who are still so patient with me even when I get stressed out and frustrated and my thoughts and words are anything but rational, like, these people deserve all the love and I need to do a better job of loving them because that is so much more important than my fears will ever be.

My bunny got sick for a few days and I was super worried about her because I looked up her symptoms and thought it was way more serious than it actually was, she ended up being okay though after a couple of days and it turned out to be nothing serious. (Also I've had her for one whole year! I got her on July 12th last year)

Emily got glasses AND OHMYGOODNESS SHE'S SO CUTE. (I wanted to include a pic but I doubt she'd let me take one.)

May or may not be just slightly addicted to Spotify. Sad? Spotify.  Stressed out? Spotify. Happy? Well, you get the idea. XD

When your sister brings you coffee at 8:30 PM and...

Notice that it's almost 3:00 in the morning and my phone is seconds away from dying. XD 

My sisters and I took care of a rescued special needs gecko for a weekend, (she belongs to one of my sister's coworkers) And she's actually having us watch her again this week. If you haven't noticed already, we're pretty big on pets over here,  Emily especially. I have 6 pets in my room right now. (and no that's not counting the gecko)

Sooo much swimming, I'm so glad I failed to convince myself I didn't like swimming anymore, also that moment when you realize you spent so much money on a super cute swim shirt and end up being more comfortable just swimming in a t-shirt. XD

Okay so I learned dark chocolate is kind of amazing.

Long walks, captivating sunsets, trips to the park.

Fireworks that don't even seem real, 4th of July and all the moments where you realize it truly feels like summer.

Me: *whispering along to a song I'm listening to*
Emily: *whispers* what are you whispering? 
Me: *still whispering* ..I'm singing 

And a whole bunch more things that I'm either forgetting or failing to mention right now. But yeah, July was most definitely amazing. 


I REACHED 51 BLOG FOLLOWERS THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS. Even if my main focus for this blog isn't having a lot of followers or getting a ton of comments on every post, I want those of you guys who do comment on my posts, and who encourage and inspire me with your blogs to know much you mean to me. You inspire me to make my blog better, post about what I'm passionate about and you make me want to creep out of my introverted comfort zone and actually get to know some people better and build some friendships.

Talked about some real stuff and shared some struggles I've been dealing with, thank you guys all so much for your comments on my last post! <3 

Updates my blog photos.

Started a new Instagram! You can check it out here 

How Camp Nano Went Down 

I DID IT. I MET MY GOAL AND WROTE 40,000 WORDS THIS MONTH. Yes this was my first successful Camp Nano and no, the book isn't finished yet, almost though. I spent pretty much all of yesterday writing, (well, writing and singing/dancing to Spotify and pacing my room contemplating my book plot) I wrote 5,607 words which I think is the most I've written in one day.

AND THE WHOLE THING IS SUCH A MESS. Honestly probably my messiest-ever first draft out of the three books I've written, not to mention the least plotted. XD BUT THAT'S OKAY. Even though no one is ever going to be allowed to read it until it's been vigorously edited. (nope not even you Sare, it's way too much of a mess) And surprisingly I'm okay with that, which I think is a good thing? I mean, the fact that I was able to get it written without dwelling on how bad it was is pretty important I think. Because even if it is terribly far from being a halfway decent novel by now, it's mine and it has beauty and potential in it.

And listen, don't beat yourself up if you didn't meet your word goal this month,or if you had to lower it once, twice, even thrice, sometimes life happens, sometimes books plots don't cooperate, and that's okay. No matter how Camp ended for you this month, what matters is that you wrote. 

This was my very first successful Camp Nano after three previous attempts, I always fell behind before, ran into plot struggles, heck, back in April I didn't even get back the first couple chapters because that book was kinda just a lost cause.

That moment when you're writing a scene where a main character is getting attacked by a wolf and then THIS SONG STARTS PLAYING.

...Like, I feel kind of terrible but also am slightly amazed??? 

Also something big that happened that really helped me during this last week of Nano was that I finally bought my own laptop for writing and blogging! Just last week actually, it's been super awesome. 

Conquer Camp Nano  

Figure out what I want to do for my birthday 

Sleep outside - didn't do this but still want to. 

Bake something summery - I actually didn't really bake a lot this month but still also want to do this. 

Try a new hairstyle - Kinda, sort of did this? BUT EVERYTIME I TRY TO DO MY HAIR THERE IS NOT A PONYTAIL HOLDER IN SIGHT. 

Take pictures of fireworks - Somehow didn't do this but I don't wanna talk about it. XP 

Not let this month slip away worrying about everything  - I mean I still worried about stuff but not EVERYTHING. 

So yeah, I didn't meet all of my goals for this month, but it was still a pretty successful month, writing also just so happens to be a time-sucking beast and this month was really busy. 

Anticipating August 

FREEDOM FROM NANO. Well...once I finish the book anyway. (I've got about 5-10k to go) And then I'm either going to take a break or work on editing my Nanowrimo novel. Still undecided. 


Working on my sister's birthday present cause her birthday is one the 21st. And hopefully work on some more DIYS to which I didn't get to do much this month BECAUSE LIKE I SAID WRITING IS A TIME-SUCKING BEAST. 

Hopefully flying with my mom to bring my new sister home in a couple of weeks! (It will be my first time flying if we do which would be super exciting) 

I want to take a couple days away from my computer and phone this week because I've been pretty much glued to them this past week with the end of Nano and everything. 

Continue to work toward conquering my fears and battling my perfectionism. I don't want to continue to be so stressed out by eating healthy and food and everything.  And I know I need to conquer the voice in my head if I want to be mentally and physically healthier. 

And thus concludes my monthly wrap-up post. XD Goodbye, July. Hello August. 

What are you looking back on, what are you looking forward to? 


Monday, July 24, 2017

H E A L T H Y lifestyle + What I've Learned + What I'm Learning

*fun fact, frozen berries only stay pretty for so long while you're trying to photograph them. 

So today's post is going to be something a bit different, something a bit personal, I'm not going to go super into depth, but I still wanted to share with you guys some things that have been going on in my life these past months, how I'm dealing with them/dealt with them and what I've learned/am still learning.

Basically after months of what I didn't realize were disordered thoughts and behaviors towards food and trying to be healthier, I'm finally learning what a healthy lifestyle actually is. I don't want to label myself as having an eating disorder, but I do know that a lot of my thoughts that have prevented me from treating my body right, and leading me to being afraid of perfectly healthy foods just because I read someone's opinion on them on the internet, and purposefully restricting and depriving myself for no logical reason at all, was neither rational, logical, or healthy.

The reason me trying to eat healthy ended up being unhealthy, and actually potentially dangerous and harmful, was because my approach to it was all wrong, it was fear-based and misguided.

I've learned SO MUCH. I've learned just how beautifully complex God created us and our bodies and how important it is we fuel them properly and take care of them. I've learned so much about nutrition the difference between what actually healthy eating is and what I had convinced myself it was.

I'm learning what being healthy and balanced actually means, and that it shouldn't involve being stressed out and driven insane with perfectionism and misguided, disordered ideas of what is healthy and what is not. I'm learning to recognize when my thoughts aren't rational and when it's just me being a perfectionist, And not letting anxiety get in the way of trusting God, my parents and people who know so much better than I do.

I'm happy to say I'm doing much better now, still eating healthy but actually eating enough calories to have enough energy to do all the things that make summer awesome like biking, swimming, hiking, taking long walks, ect. And working on having a  healthier mindset and attitude towards food, undoing the damage done from not eating enough and treating my body right,and overall becoming healthier and happier than I was before,

I know this isn't something I've posted about before, but I wanted to be real and honest with you guys, Thanks for reading! <3