Monday, May 15, 2017

Biking + It's National Chocolate Chip Day??? + Writing woes

What's up  you guys? Is it just me or is it totally starting to actually feel like the beginning of summer? (tomorrow  is supposed to be 86 degrees eeeep!) also May is already have over AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS.

My dad bought be a bike last weekend and I realized it's the first one I've ever had that wasn't previously owned by my sister, so that's pretty awesome.

Also I found out just last night that today is National Chocolate Chip day? So obviously I did the only logical thing to do, bake chocolate chip cookies! (as if I needed an excuse) I wasn't super happy with how they turned out to be honest, but I think they turned out pretty good still and they tasted good so that's all that matters. XD

Also...guys...I haven't gotten a new book idea since January which is very strange for me...I only just realized this the other day when I stumbled across a song that made me want to write a book for it but didn't quite spark an idea, ugh, much frustrate, inspiration without a place to put it is both a wonderful and agonizing thing for me. XD I've been thinking about July Nano and some story ideas that I've been toying with in my mind for a while...I can't believe how much I've drifted away from the writing world this year!  But hopefully writing will start back up soon BECAUSE I MISS WRITING.

Did you celebrate National Chocolate Chip Day? 
What's the writing world been like for you this month? 

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

The Happiness Tag + NEW CAMERA

So Paige tagged me for The Happiness Tag (which I didn't even know was a thing?!) on her blog last week,  and since I've kinda been wanting to do a 'things-that-make-me-happy' sort of post for a while now I was like, yeah, totally doing this. XD

Now I'm not sure if there are any actual rules for this tag or what so I'm just going to get right to it and then at the end I'll tag some lovely people, kay? 

Some things that make me happy

Sunlit mornings/waking up early 
The smell of espresso (and basically anything to do with coffee in general. XD) 
Spending time with my rabbit, she is seriously the most interesting bunny I've ever met and she's so full of personality. 
Loudly singing along to music. (If you know me in real life then you probably never ever witness this, but trust me, when I'm home alone, it happens. XD)

Obviously I could go on, but those are just a few random little things. Now onto finding some people to tag..

Vanessa Best - Simply Me
\Sarah Margaret - the introverted extrovert
Mary Horton - Sunshine and Scribblings

Anyone and everyone else who wants to do this. XD

Thanks again Paige for tagging me! I really enjoyed doing this. <3

Alsooo, as you may have gathered from the title, YES I BOUGHT I NEW CAMERA. Well, it's new to me anyways, I bought my sister's camera from her on Sunday since she bought a new one, I'm still  becoming acquainted with it but I think we're going to get along really well. XD (It's a Canon G15 in case you were curious, I had a Canon G11 before)

Sooo, will you be doing the tag? 
What kind of camera do you have? 


Friday, April 28, 2017

Hightlights of A P R I L + Hello May

Guyyys April is over and everything is turning green and Summer is just around the corner and I'M SO EXCITED. So here are some of my highlights for this month, or at some of them


My sister and I got some new roommates XD 

Alllll the thunderstorms. I say dreamily, but what I really mean is REALLY AGGRESSIVE THUNDERSTORMS THAT WAKE YOU UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. 

Hanging out with one of my friends who I had barely seen since like October so that was awesome. 

Jumping on our new trampoline.

My mom, sister and I started watching The Great British Baking Show and it kinda makes me really want to bake  XD

Discovering just how crazy fast my room can turn into a wreck when I suddenly get a really awesome diy idea, like, "Just ignore the glue gun in the corner and the bin of twigs and water on my desk, thanks" 

Ahem, our dog killed a rooster and left it under our deck. O.o 

Celebrating Easter. 

Almost not buying neon coral converse cause I thought I wouldn't actually wear them, buying them and then wearing them two days in a row. 

Awkwardly realizing that most of my wardrobe really is blues and grey. *also realizes I'm wearing blue and grey as I'm typing this* 

We got a cement tortoise, his name is Sheldon, and according to my mom he's the best pet we've ever had. 

Blasting music really loudly when left home alone. (Yasssss)

Walking in to find my sister sitting on her bed with the rats sitting in her lap, reading them a bedtime story. TELL ME THAT ISN'T ADORABLE. 

Being left home alone for four hours (which pretty much never happens) and then randomly deciding to make pastries. 

Spontaneous trips to Michaels and Jo-anns 

Finding out a book series I thought was a trilogy HAS A FOURTH BOOK THAT JUST CAME OUT and it's like, I thought it was over, forever, but nope. So know all I have left to do is wait two days because bless Amazon Prime. XD

I somehow managed to cut my finger with a butter knife, (I didn't know this was possible???) 

Dogsitting, which is great and all, except for when it's not, I'm trying to be positive about it though and remind myself that someone actually trusts me with their 5 dogs.

R E A D S 
Cinder - Marissa Meyer (I started it at the end of March but read a majority of it this month so it counts XD)

Brightwood - Tania Unsworth

Scarlet - Marissa Meyer

Cress - Marissa Meyer (Actually not finished yet but it counts still) 

I read more this month than I have in months so that's good, especially since one of my goals this year was to read more than I did last year. 


 Waste less time on social media   Also something I hope to continue to work on next month. 

Reach my word goal for Camp Nano. LOL NOPE. Check out my last post. 

- Make macarons and hopefully not fail miserably  SUCCESS! 

Film a vlog I almost did this one, but somehow never managed to get around to it, oh well, maybe next month? 

- Read 5 books

- Take more walks outside 

- Attempt to make eclairs. 

- Have a photoshoot. 

I'm sure there are more, but other than some personal goals those are all I can think of right now. 

What's something awesome/random/crazy that happened to you this month?

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Confessions of a Camp Nano drop-out

Well...I didn't want to say that I actually quit Camp Nano...but considering that there were only three days this month in which I actually wrote. It's kinda the truth I suppose. 

I don't know why writing fell flat this month, I don't think it has anything to do with taking such a long break, because the few times when I actually was writing and making progress and the words were flowing, it felt awesome and I was thrilled to be writing again.
Until I realized that this book just wasn't going to work. 
And maybe I could've pulled through, wrestled my perfectionism and plunged fearlessly into this new book knowing it was going to be a laughably-poorly-plotted-mess, IF I COULD HAVE AT LEAST GOTTEN PAST THE FIRST THREE CHAPTERS and had even the barest of basic outlines to consult. 

And you know what? I'm not stressing over it. This month has been pretty awesome so far, I've been reading a lot more lately. and just living life and stuff. I really do want to get back to writing, and it's not like I'm short on book ideas, *glances at abundance of Pinterest boards* So maybe I'll spontaneously start something new, we'll see. 

I hope you guys don't think I'm lame, I don't think I am sooo *shrugs* 
Shout out to all you guys who actually made progress in writing this month cause you guys are awesome. XD 

Also, I randomly got the idea the other day to make a tiny bird's nest and I'm honestly so happy with how it turned out, even if it took me a while to actually figure out the best way to do it. And also making my mom suspicious by sneaking a bin of water in my room (to soak twigs) but not telling her why. XD 

Saturday, April 15, 2017

HE IS RISEN + Problematic glue and my photogenic rabbit.

Uhm, excuse me, can we talk about how cute this bunny is???
Easter is tomorrow! 

In our family we like to do 'Easter-basket-Easter' on Saturday, y,know, candy and stuff like that, (and wayy to many peanut butter cups XD) so on Sunday we can actually focus on the true meaning, I am so continuously awed by the fact that My King died for me, gave His life up for the people who least deserved it, thinking about it makes me tear up a bit, it's something I never, ever want to take for granted. 
It also makes me think about, how, if Jesus could sacrifice Himself for the very people who wanted Him dead, then the very least I could do is try to love the people who don't deserve it, the ones who are hard to love, like, seriously. 

Also yes I'm sooo proud of Miss Margaret for holding still when I was taking pictures of her yesterday, XD usually she's all over the place, (and most of the time she was while I was taking these pictures) but sometimes she surprises me and I'm like HOW ARE YOU SO CUTE. 

I learned something yesterday. 

Trying to do something as simple as drawing with glue is wayyy harder than it sounds. 
I was trying to draw designs on this jar so I could paint over it, simple enough, right? 
Wrong, I tried filling a sandwich bag with glue and snipping a teeny tiny corner off and piping it out, which sort of worked, other than the fact that it kept smearing when I tried to do overlapping lines, and eventually I ran out of glue. 
Next I tried hot glue, which was what I originally planned to do, hot glue is HARD. It kept either coming out in thin strings that didn't even stick to the jar or big globs that I still don't know how to get off. XD 


^^ story of my life. 

Your thoughts on Easter? 
Have you ever had a total DIY disaster? 


Monday, April 3, 2017

My room has rats + LIFE UPDATES

C'mon, how could you not think that's cute.
Uhm, guys, I just moved into my room last month, and already it has rats living in it.

And I'm totally not complaining because they're so sweet and adorable and my sister and I unexpectedly ended up taking care of them last week, possibly for good because our brother doesn't have enough time for them, THEY'RE SO CUTE. Honestly, yes, I used to hate rats, (totally cliche, right?) To most people they're just unappealing I guess, but in reality they're actually pretty cool, super smart and super sweet. 

What else is up? 

- Going to the library for the first time in forever and finding out they have The Lunar Chronicles there which I've been wanting to read for a long time, finishing reading Cinder and now not knowing what to do with my life until we go back to the library. (also WHY DID I WAIT SO LONG TO READ THESE BOOKS) 

Desperately needing to write and then doing literally anything else except for writing. 

- Randomly making cookies and putting pretzels in them because honestly why not

Hopefully moving my bunny's cage back outside on the porch soon, (if it ever stops raining) She lives on the porch in the summer and in the garage in the winter, I really don't like having her in the garage, she's very much an outdoor bunny. XD 

Well, this post pretty much came out of nowhere, anyways, bye guys, I'm going to go continue trying to figure out my life. (and hopefully write???) 

Do you like rats? Do you have any pets? I love to talk about pets. XD 
Have you read The Lunar Chronicles? 
How is Camp Nano going for you so far? 


Monday, March 27, 2017

Highlights of March

Yes, I know, I'm kinda early, but I don't care. XD 

It was a pretty awesome month guys, just for so many reasons, like WINTER IS OVER, and Camp Nano is happening next month, and a whole month dedicated to writing is just what I need after a four month break, (FOUR MONTHS!?) 

Anyway, onto some of this month's highlights. 
REAL -  L I F E 

- In no particular order - 
Spending THE ENTIRE MONTH trying to make plans with a friend for her to come over AND EVERY SINGLE WEEK it ends up not working out. Being super excited about finding my sister an ostrich shirt. (She really loves ostriches) 
Finding a super cute tiny cactus at Target but then not buying it cause it ended up being like 8$...o.O
Going to see Beauty and The Beast
Camp nano plotting. (Or therefore, thinking about how I should be plotting but then getting distracted and also endlessly daydreaming about my characters and already having favorites) 
SPRINGGGGGGGG *frolicks in the sunshine* *slips and faceplants in a mud puddle instead because reality* 
Falling asleep to the sound of rain. 
Trying avocado toast for the first time. (Don't look at me like that, it actually tastes good) 
Vaccuming my desk O.o 
Forgetting to mention that YES I FINALLY GOT A DESK and so yeah I'm pretty happy.
Fnally having a glue gun in my possession and now I HAVE ALL DA POWER. 
Being struck with the realization that you can just walk into Target and buy a potato. 
Is it weird that whenever I find myself in a mildly uncomfortable situation I remind myself that I've put my characters through way worse?
(I'm a terrible person jsyk)
Having weird dreams about my characters and then randomly remembering them like...'what...' o.O
Spring/summer clothes shopping. 
Finally finding my rabbit a toy she doesn't complete ignore, (why is she so picky?!?) 


I got a new blog design! (Which is obvious) I just love how much more clean and simple it is compared to my old one, I love it. 
Finally started to emerge from the blogging rut I was finding myself in. INSPIRATION HAS RECLAIMED ME.
Trying to figure out why my profile picture keeps disappearing?!? 
Talked about how real the struggle is when you have a lot of main characters in your novel
Flailed over warm weather and rambled about life


I am not a plotter. And if you've read any of my first drafts this is laughingly obvious. XD I don't have an artfully crafted outline for this new book with everything in it's place, everything figured out, nope, I have a vague idea of what I'm doing but as long as I feel like I  have enough to write about and enough to figure out the rest along the way, I'm ready.

I did not edit this month. Editing...specifically with this book...maybe it's just a first novel thing? I mean, come on, I'm only 14 and it's my first novel and I've never edited anything before AND HONESTLY THIS BOOK IS A MESS, call me lame or a quitter if you want, but nobody is forcing me to edit this book to perfection and it's not like it's ever going to be published, yes I did fantasize about getting it printed out once it's finished. And before anyone asks, no, I'm not going to do this with all my books, I can already tell that when the time comes to edit my other novel it is going to be a lot easier.

G O A L S  

Recap of March's goals 
Keep my new room clean. 'Cept for my desk which inevitably always seems to end up messy again XD 

FINISH EDITING. Listen, okay, I don't want to talk about editing, can we save that for another post that I'll avoid for as long as possible ? 

Wake up early more  At the beginning of the month I started waking up earlier and I guess I've kinda made a habit out of it, which is totally awesome. XD

Go see Beauty and The Beast.  Yesss my sister and I went to go see it last week and gah it was amazing. 

April goals! 

Waste less time on social media (*cough* Instagram and Pinterest *coughcough* 

- Reach my word goal for Camp Nano 

- Make macarons and hopefully not fail miserably 

- Film a vlog (anyone interesting in seeing my face??) 

How was your month? What inspired you? We should totally chat. 


Tuesday, March 21, 2017

IT'S SPRINGGG + Just let life happen

GUYS IT'S SPRING  I went outside to take pics yesterday, spent like 5 seconds trying to find shoes and then decided to just forgo wearing shoes altogether cause it was SO WARM OUTSIDE and yeah I'm totally ready for spring/summer/all the things.

(except for camp nano, cause I'm not one of those people who spends months in advance carefully plotting out the entire book, I usually end up just jumping in with what I do have plotted and see what happens, my word goal for next month is 45k, just an easy breezy goal that I'll probably change, the book itself is def going to end up being longer than that but that's just my minimum goal for April) 

Lately I've been thinking about how like, we constantly try to plan things in our minds and try to figure out life and want everything to be organized when really WE DON'T HAVE TO BE IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING and how sometimes the best things are unexpected and how you never know what life is going to throw into your face even when you think you have everything figured out. 

And how there's over a million billion stars and that they all have names and the moon is constantly pulling on the ocean which is 95% unexplored and how life is just amazing and we should just LIVE instead of thinking we need to be in control of everything. Just let life happen you guys. 

(Also, if you happen to be home alone, get some music going and sing your heart out, doesn't matter if you're not good at it, it makes you feel alive inside) 

What's your word goal for Camp Nano? 
Do some things just...blow your mind? 


Sunday, March 12, 2017

Giving every character a purpose - CAMP NANO is HAPPENING

Katie Grace reminded me yesterday on her blog that Camp Nano starts in 20 days (well actually 19 days now) AND I'M TOTALLY NOT READY, I've got a bunch of messy notes and a genre that I've never written before BUT I'M TOTALLY EXCITED TO BE STARTING THIS NEW STORY.
(I haven't written since November...*shivers*) 

Somehow, I ended up with 5 main characters in my new novel. Not all of which I have an established role for or goals or backstory or anything.

I do, however, have an aesthetic Pinterest storyboard that I've been adding to since January so obviously I have my priorities in check. XD

This is always important, but it's especially a key to managing a lot of main characters, when you just have characters wandering around not really knowing what they're supposed to be doing because for some reason you felt like they had to be the story and you find yourself trying to cram them into scenes, that's when you end up with problems and possibly end up cutting people out which complicates things.

So yes, GIVE EVERY CHARACTER A REASON TO BE IN THE STORY. What are their goals? How do they contribute to the plot? Are they a main character or a supporting character? Would the story be any different without them?

This is what I'm working through with some of my characters, although I'm pretty sure I know what I'm doing with most of them and where they fit into the plot, it's still important to make sure all your characters exist for a reason, no matter how small the reason.

Have you ever struggled with this in any of your stories? 
Are you doing Camp Nano next month? 


Sunday, March 5, 2017

New look - Blog remodeling

Heyyyy guys!

Notice anything different around here?  Well, I don't mean to state the obvious or anything but yasss I completely updated my blog design!

Thoughts? Opinons? XD Personally I feel like it's a lot less distracting and overwhelming than my previous design, which I really liked, but it should be the content of my blog that really stands out and not just pretty fonts. (Athough pretty fonts are quite marvelous) also I think I like how it's not quite so dark and bold.

And yeah, I'm still working on fixing some things and getting stuff set up, which is why some things may seem a little wonky still, I love it though.

Have an awesome day you guys and don't waste time worrying about things that aren't worth it, kay?

Soooo, what do you think? 


Tuesday, February 28, 2017

~ February Wrap-up ~

*Just ignore the weird reflection of my fingers okay XD 

*also the weird formatting of this post because Blogger is misbehaving and no joke I get legitamately angry when my posts don't format properly. 

 In which I subject you all to incessant ramblings about this past month.

So aparently there are only 28 days in February?!? Like, what are you? Are you even a real month? It feels so wrong to me somehow.

~ the unpredictableness that is life  ~ 

Got sick not once but TWICE and bleck, that kinda temporarily ruined my life. XP 

Endlessly daydreaming of spring and summer and all of the things. 

Making lemon donuts. (OHMYGOODNESS) 

Laying on the living room floor in the dark with a bunny running around you. (precious little fluffball weirdo that she is <33) 

Making smoothies for the first time. 

Cutting my hair, (Okay actually my mom cut it shorter despite my protests because apparently it needed to be cut and I hated it at first but now I really love it XD ) 

Days that almost feel like summer. 

Conversations with sis about decorating our new room. 

Getting to see one my friends be in a play. 

Rainy Fridays and Starbucks. 

My playlist for my new novel is officially one of my favorite book playlists. <3 

Poems swirling in my mind, yet to be written down. 

Fleeting bursts of inspiration, tiny explosions that happen so quickly and leave you searching through your foggy mind, searching for a fragment but none of it quite makes sense, it's just a feeling deep inside your chest. 

^^^ What I meant by poems yet to be written down, I mean, that came out of nowhere, but it's like things I want to write poems about but just haven't yet. 



Look, I'm not one of those bloggers who treat blogging like a chore or anything, I love blogging, but I hate getting into uninspired ruts, which sorta happened this month. I DON'T LIKE NOT BEING INSPIRED. 

But, I think I'm starting to get back into the swing of things, even though I was pretty quite this month.

~ E d i t i n g ~ 

I totally scrapped my main character and IF YOU'VE READ MY BOOK THEN IT'LL BE EASY TO UNDERSTAND WHY. Yes, I completely obliterated the existence of Markus Shorne and threw any last traces of him out the window, (And he actually had been thrown out of a window before, but that is besides the point) 

I facetimed with Sare and we talked discussed all of the plot things, (okay, not all of them but a lot of the big things at least) And brainstormed her new book idea as well. 

I learned that, like first drafts, second drafts aren't perfect either, THIS IS NOT THE FINAL PRODUCT, as much as I've been hoping that I'd only have to edit this book once, that is not going to be the case and I'm okay with that. 

(Seriously though, I cannot wait for Camp Nano in April, I WANT TO BE FREE OF THIS PRISON AND BE CRAZY AND JUST WRITE FREELY, and my new novel idea is unlike anything I've written before so obviously I'm super excited) 

And just in case you were wondering, yes, I am the most unproductive editor ever, glad we have that cleared up.

~ M A R C H - G O A L S ~ 

Keep my new room clean. (I'm serious, I will not allow it to become cluttered, I AM DETERMINED) 

FINISH EDITING. I don't know if I'll be able to do it in one month, but we'll see.

Wake up early more. (Cause I've actually been waking up early a lot more lately and I'd like to make that a thing)

Go see Beauty and The Beast. (eeeeep!) 

What was February like for you? 
Random question: Am I the only one who has sudden bursts of inspiration come out of nowhere for no reason? XP 


Wednesday, February 22, 2017

~ Life right now ~ Ft. Emily Dickinson poems because reasons ~

It looks kinda gloomy in this pic but trust me, it was super sunny outside and it was epic. 
Oh my goodness you guys it feels like summer right now,.Okay, maybe not exactly summer, but like we got to go to the park in short sleeves in February and so that's kind of awesome,
And then coming home and babysitting while my parents pick up pizza and blasting music because obviously that's what you do when you're left to watch all your younger siblings for ten minutes. 

This is life and this is epicness. 

I had a dream about my book last night, which mainly involved following my former main character around (in that confusing type of dream way where you're there but not really there) And the first half of the book being about him getting chased down around this city and some kind of trouble he got himself in, and then the story finally getting to what it's actually about in reality, it was just really weird though because in my dream it didn't even occur to me that I had cut him out, and then I woke up and remembered.  

I really wish I dreamed about my stories more though, it's only happened like a handful of times. 

And yesss my younger sister and I went to Hobby Lobby last week, (obviously the fact that I got a gift card for Christmas had nothing to do with it all XD) Where they have like, all the most amazing charms ever and we spent so much time just searching through all of them, I got the one above, isn't it gorgeous? <33 

Have you ever had a dream about your book? 
Wassup with you guys? How's life? Let's chat about all the things. 


Wednesday, February 15, 2017

~ Perfectionism, pink sunsets and coffee (or therefore lack of) ~

The sky was pink the other night and if that is not totally the most Valentine's Day thing ever then I don't know what is. <33 

So I somehow ended up inventing a new word whilst brainstorming characters for my April novel whilst crashed on the couch, (DO NOT QUESTION THE CREATIVE PROCESS) And I like it and may or may not have related to it in the moment that I came up with it. XD


The act of craving or consuming Oreos whilst in a disoriented state))

Why was I crashed on the couch instead of doing something remotely productive? It might have something to do with that I didn't/barely drank coffee for over a week because I was sick so it didn't really sound good after that, and then yesterday I drank coffee and my sister made  me a latte so I was finally all hyped on caffeine and then today I didn't have caffeine and I was just like 'Why do I feel dead' so it might've been like a caffeine-withdrawal type thing but I dunno it was weird okay. XP

And also pink and purple sunsets are what life is all about yo, and no joke just when I came inside from snapping a pic or two as fast as I could Sare texted me a pic of the sunset there and it was like YASS PINK SUNSETS FOR EVERYONE.

Also no body ask me about editing cause nope no it didn't happen today BUT I've got a post coming next week for you guys about that, *winks*

*cue something actually relevant*


As you might know, deep down inside, I can be a total perfectionist sometimes,  and sometimes it makes doing creative things really hard because I get into this mindset of 'I'm going to do this and it's going to be exactly as I imagine it because what could possibly go wrong?' 
Sometimes things do turn out and end up being like I daydreamed them and then that's totally awesomeness but SOMETIMES:

Sometimes I do the thing,

And the thing isn't perfect or I run into troubles or IT'S A COMPLETE AND TOTAL DISASTER and I'm just left like.

'That's it, I'm terrible  at everything, why do I even bother'

No, no, no that's not okay. Don't do that, alright? Just because you messed up, messing up happens, it's life and it's how you learn things and it's okay if once in a while something is a complete and total flop.

Because even imperfect things can be beautiful. 

So yeah, maybe my novel will never be as completely-stunningly-epic once I actually get it written or even after vigorous editing. Or the thing I'm trying to make might not turn out as perfectly as I expect it too, AND I CAN'T ALWAYS WRITE PERFECTLY WORDED BLOGPOSTS. But you know what? That's okay.

Because writing and creating things is art and ART IS NOT PERFECT. And you should write and make things and make music and do the creative things because you want too and not too impress anyone.

So yeah, that's just something I've been thinking about for the past few days. (And yes I'm aware of how many times I used the words 'sometimes' and perfect' and 'things' as you can tell I'm in an extremely eloquent mood)

Have you ever made up words? 
Are you a perfectionist? 


Wednesday, February 8, 2017

~ Epic failures ~ Uninspiring winter ~

All the snow is gone, the rain killed it. :| but LOOK AT DIS PUPPER. Yes she likes to eat snow. 

What's up you guys? I've been pretty quiet this month so far since I've been sick and this past week has been pretty weird but yeah. 

Last week I tried to make chocolate macarons, all confident like 'Yeah this is totally going to be great' I got all the stuff ready and weighed all the ingredients and stuff, I mixed up the batter and I was already pretty sure they were going to turn out. 



Apparently I was holding the bowl too close to the edge of the counter as I was turning it and before I could catch it it tragically plundered to the ground and shattered. Do you know how hard it is to clean up sticky macaron batter and chunks of glass at the same time? AND AVOIDING STEPPING IN GLASS?  Yeah, it's very hard. -_- 

Also guess what guys? I'm getting a new room in (hopefully) a couple of weeks, eeep! I'm going to be moving upstairs and sharing a room with my younger sister, and also hopefully finally getting a desk, (yes I'm a writer without a desk and no I am not miserable) 

And also that means I'm finally going to be doing a room tour post, (which I mentioned wayyy back but never ended up doing it) So yeah, that's definitely happening for real this time. 

Also I kinda sorta really want summer to happen.  (I WANT TO GO OUTSIDE WITHOUT FREEZING MY FINGERS AND FIND SOMETHING OTHER THAN DEAD TREES TO TAKE PICTURES OF) Winter is fun at first but then it just gets to boring and uninspiring for a while, y,know? 

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed this little life-update post even though not much has been happening lately. hopefully that changes soon. 

Does winter inspire you, or not? 


Tuesday, January 31, 2017

~ January Wrap-up ~

Boom, January, gone. 

So this month was actually quite interesting, I got a lot of stuff done and worked on figuring out my life a bit, I didn't do a wrap-up post last month cause it was December and everything and I was kind of confused and at a loss as to what to post about, I'm going to try to stick to doing these kind of posts every month from now on though.

Anyway, onto some of the awesome/random/interesting/important things that happened this month. 

~ Real life ~

- Hung out at Biggby with Sare, she helped me with some plot stuff and also I GOT TO SEE HER BOOK. The actual physical thing and it is gorgeous. 

- Tried out DIY bath bombs with my younger sister, not because we actually planned on using them as bath bombs but we wanted to see if they worked and would turn out looking cool, all they really did was fizz up and turn the water a different color though, nothing super interesting, they were fun to make though.

- Stayed up till 3:00 am working on a bracelet for my sister's birthday

- Went to a Building 429 concert with my older brother and sister. (it was awesome) 

- Learned how to make lattes. (I'm still not nearly as good at it as my sister, who is, after all, a professional barista, I still need a lot more practice) 

- Having an actual nightmare about my siblings finding and destroying my editing notes cause I remembered that I left my notebook upstairs just as I was falling asleep, (In case you ever wondered what kind of nightmares writers have) 

- Brushed my bunny a ton because she suddenly started shedding a ton, which resulted in me covered in bunny hair at midnight and having to use a lint roller to get it all off. 

- I learned that if you speak nicely to chickens they will approach you in a very non-threatening manner. 

True story 

- It didn't snow for like weeks straight but NOW IT'S SNOWING AGAIN AS YOU CAN SEE IN  THE PIC ABOVE, which of course makes me happy.

- Made peanut butter pop-tarts on National Pie Day sort of counts? And I'm not really into pie.

- Made another felted bird. (As soon on my Instagram)

- Listened to a ton of music and took a ton of photos. (Let's be honest though that happens every month, it happens all the time, it's my life)

- Got sick for like one day, bleck, being sick is gross.

Annnd that's all I can think of for now although a lot more things happened, 

~ Blogging life ~

-  Overcame enough anxiety to actual film and upload my first ever vlog! and surprisingly I'm not pained with embarrassment whenever I think about it, like, I feel like I could do another vlog in the future, a better one, but we'll see. ;)

- Also, FINALLY SHARED SOME OF MY WRITING ON HERE. which, also surprisingly, I wasn't really freaked out at all by it, you guys left so many lovely comments on both my snippets and vlog, you all are the best. <33

- Did a post on hiding from editing and many of you agreed that when it comes to avoiding your responsibilites, becoming a dragon is the best way to go. XP

- Posted a poem that was literally just a semi-understandable form of rambling to make sense of my thoughts.

- My blog reached 40 followers THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU AWESOME HUMAN BEINGS, <33

- Did another post about editing to prove I didn't actually become a dragon in order to avoid my responsibilities, although I wouldn't put it past myself.

~ Writing life ~

- I began plotting two new novels, I didn't intend for it to happen, THE PLOT BUNNIES they just, happened. anyway, I'm super excited about them both and I can't wait for April Camp Nano because that's when I'll for sure be writing one of them. 

- I was carelessly thrust into the world of editing, after much protesting and  procrastination,and it's been pretty interesting so far, although I'm trying to figure out just how long it will take to rewrite a novel. :P

- I started reading Sare's first draft of her novel Oblivion.

- Also, it's been really motivating seeing how much my writing has improved since writing the beginning of Contempt, like, there's a very significant improvement and that makes me happy.

~ February Goals ~ 

- Make more progress in editing than I did this month. 

- Read at least 6 books. 

- Finish alpha-reading for Sare. 

- Catch up on math. (Did I ever tell you that I utterly despise math?) 

Again, I'm sure there are are more, but those are all I could think of off the top of my head. 

Are you excited for February? 


Friday, January 27, 2017

~ Editing update ~ How this novel has shaped me as a writer ~ {Much rambling}

Okay so I had a really hard time finding pics for this post cause I wasn't able to get any writing-related photos, so alas, here are some snowflakes on ice, onto the post now. XD 

Alright, so, you may have noticed that a couple posts back I subtly mentioned I had finally started editing, right? And so obviously even though I didn't get nearly as far into it as I would've liked, I decided to talk you guys about what's up before you accuse me of ignoring my responsibilities entirely. 

So, basically right now I'm just reading through the first draft and making excessive notes as I go along, (Because before I tried just jumping into it and fearlessly, recklessly revising everything in sight until I got stuck because I realized just how messed up my actual plot is and was left sad and confused and intimidated, true story) 

I'm almost halfway through, and now that I'm nearing the middle I'm starting to realize that the whole thing really isn't all that bad, I mean, the beginning is next to unbearable, but it gets better, the plot is just very very flawed and I'm noticing how I don't really have enough 'in-between' stuff, like filler scenes between significant events that  flesh out the plot and make the whole thing seem less choppy and jagged as you're reading it. Anyone else ever have this?

Also I have come to one very important conclusion, there is going to be a lot more re-writing involved than I previously anticipated, like, I might have to tear most of the basic plot apart and then piece it back together in an entirely different manner, make sense? No? Yeah, it doesn't make much sense to me either. XD

I realized something this week, guys, as I was going through my first draft, some of the most embarrassing and cringe-worthy scenes, wondering if this story even could be salvaged, (mind you this was when I was going through some of the early chapters *winces* those were some dark times)
Basically wondering if, when it all comes down to, well, everything, is this novel worth it? Now, this isn't something that I have really taken the time to fully dwell on, but it has crossed my mind many a time, usually when I'm forced to face the fact that, in reality, my novel isn't a literary masterpiece, and it probably never will be.

But you know what? I'm okay with that.

Because writing this book taught me thing, it taught me a lot of things actually, it literally made me the writer I am today.

I learned to set goals and stick to them
I learned that the first step to getting a first draft written is throwing the idea of perfection out the window and just w r i t i n g 
I learned that writing has become a part of my life and something that I'm really truly serious about.

Also learning that my characters tend to have minds of their own and oftentimes I'm forced to just go with it, I love this cast though, despite their craziness, and I've realized just how attached I've become to them as well.

And that's why I haven't given up on this story, why I didn't while I was writing and I'm totally not going to now.

Any editing tips? 
Stuff you learned from your first novel? 

Friday, January 20, 2017

~ A spontaneously-written-poem without a title ~

It's the song stuck in your head
The same verse echoing endlessly
It's the things that aggravate
And enchant
The calm
And chaotic
Parts of your mind
It's the screen light shining in your eyes at night
It's 2:00 am
Why are you still awake?
It's whatever though runs through your mind
When you catch a glimpse of your reflection
Do you smile, because you know the person staring back at you?
Or do you frown, because you don't smile at strangers?
Take a deep breath
Count backwards from 5
Open your eyes
What torments your mind?
What nightmares and dreams keep your eyes open at night?
Tossing and turning and trying to make sense of the world?
It's something that comforts you
What makes you feel alive inside
What brings you to life with a fire
That will give you the strength to fight
It's how your voice shakes
When you talk about what's making your soul tremble inside
It's when you're laughing so hard
And you think you look ridiculous but you don't care
And you wish you didn't care so much all the time
Because sometimes it's just a little too much
Too much to take
But you can do it
I know you can
Because if you don't find the courage to care
Then who will?
Don't talk
Just listen.
What do you hear?
Where are you now?
What are you feeling?
Do you hear the shouts
The voices in your head you've drowned out
The background sounds
That make the silence complete
Do you hear nothing at all?
The leaves are slippery beneath your boots
The wood is cold and damp beneath your touch
And you freeze for a moment
Because for just a moment you wondered if you weren't alone
Freezing cold and all alone
The air smells faintly like woodsmoke
It's peaceful somehow
When it's just you
And the silence
And the trees
They never speak a word
Black skeletons against the barren sky
You know you're not alone
You know there's something out there
There's so much more out there
And listen
You know
The silence sometimes feels like home.
Cause it doesn't feel so lonely right now.

Something I quite randomly typed up Friday morning technically since it was around 1:00 am by the time I finished. Basically trying to articulate my messy mundane thoughts into something eloquent and readable, though not something that I entirely relate to but that doesn't really matter, and I kind of had no idea where I was going with it but I ended up really liking it, and poetry just makes me feel better sometimes, you know? It's soothing, even if what I wrote might not make perfect sense, it doesn't matter really, it is poetry after all. 

Anyway, hope you guys liked this. <3

How do you sort out your thoughts? (I've found lists and poems and ranting helps, more often than not the first two because trying to talk about things to someone else just sometimes ends up being even more confusing) 

How's your weekend going so far?