Monday, July 31, 2017

Highlights of J U L Y + Honestly, Where Do I Begin?

Woah, woah, woah, what happened this month? What didn't happen this month? July was packed with absolute craziness for me. blogging and writing picked up a lot, I spent so much time outside and listened to a whole lot of music. Brace yourselves guys cause this is gonna be a looonnng post. XD

JUST LIVING LIFE 

My 15th birthday happened and it was awesome. posted about it here

I WROTE A BOOK THIS MONTH. But we'll get to that in a minute. XD 

Guys, I seriously don't deserve the people who tolerate my insanity on a regular basis, the people who are still so patient with me even when I get stressed out and frustrated and my thoughts and words are anything but rational, like, these people deserve all the love and I need to do a better job of loving them because that is so much more important than my fears will ever be.

My bunny got sick for a few days and I was super worried about her because I looked up her symptoms and thought it was way more serious than it actually was, she ended up being okay though after a couple of days and it turned out to be nothing serious. (Also I've had her for one whole year! I got her on July 12th last year)

Emily got glasses AND OHMYGOODNESS SHE'S SO CUTE. (I wanted to include a pic but I doubt she'd let me take one.)

May or may not be just slightly addicted to Spotify. Sad? Spotify.  Stressed out? Spotify. Happy? Well, you get the idea. XD

When your sister brings you coffee at 8:30 PM and...



Notice that it's almost 3:00 in the morning and my phone is seconds away from dying. XD 

My sisters and I took care of a rescued special needs gecko for a weekend, (she belongs to one of my sister's coworkers) And she's actually having us watch her again this week. If you haven't noticed already, we're pretty big on pets over here,  Emily especially. I have 6 pets in my room right now. (and no that's not counting the gecko)

Sooo much swimming, I'm so glad I failed to convince myself I didn't like swimming anymore, also that moment when you realize you spent so much money on a super cute swim shirt and end up being more comfortable just swimming in a t-shirt. XD

Okay so I learned dark chocolate is kind of amazing.

Long walks, captivating sunsets, trips to the park.

Fireworks that don't even seem real, 4th of July and all the moments where you realize it truly feels like summer.

Me: *whispering along to a song I'm listening to*
Emily: *whispers* what are you whispering? 
Me: *still whispering* ..I'm singing 

And a whole bunch more things that I'm either forgetting or failing to mention right now. But yeah, July was most definitely amazing. 

BLOGGING 

I REACHED 51 BLOG FOLLOWERS THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS. Even if my main focus for this blog isn't having a lot of followers or getting a ton of comments on every post, I want those of you guys who do comment on my posts, and who encourage and inspire me with your blogs to know much you mean to me. You inspire me to make my blog better, post about what I'm passionate about and you make me want to creep out of my introverted comfort zone and actually get to know some people better and build some friendships.

Talked about some real stuff and shared some struggles I've been dealing with, thank you guys all so much for your comments on my last post! <3 

Updates my blog photos.

Started a new Instagram! You can check it out here 

How Camp Nano Went Down 

I DID IT. I MET MY GOAL AND WROTE 40,000 WORDS THIS MONTH. Yes this was my first successful Camp Nano and no, the book isn't finished yet, almost though. I spent pretty much all of yesterday writing, (well, writing and singing/dancing to Spotify and pacing my room contemplating my book plot) I wrote 5,607 words which I think is the most I've written in one day.

AND THE WHOLE THING IS SUCH A MESS. Honestly probably my messiest-ever first draft out of the three books I've written, not to mention the least plotted. XD BUT THAT'S OKAY. Even though no one is ever going to be allowed to read it until it's been vigorously edited. (nope not even you Sare, it's way too much of a mess) And surprisingly I'm okay with that, which I think is a good thing? I mean, the fact that I was able to get it written without dwelling on how bad it was is pretty important I think. Because even if it is terribly far from being a halfway decent novel by now, it's mine and it has beauty and potential in it.

And listen, don't beat yourself up if you didn't meet your word goal this month,or if you had to lower it once, twice, even thrice, sometimes life happens, sometimes books plots don't cooperate, and that's okay. No matter how Camp ended for you this month, what matters is that you wrote. 

This was my very first successful Camp Nano after three previous attempts, I always fell behind before, ran into plot struggles, heck, back in April I didn't even get back the first couple chapters because that book was kinda just a lost cause.

That moment when you're writing a scene where a main character is getting attacked by a wolf and then THIS SONG STARTS PLAYING.


...Like, I feel kind of terrible but also am slightly amazed??? 

Also something big that happened that really helped me during this last week of Nano was that I finally bought my own laptop for writing and blogging! Just last week actually, it's been super awesome. 
GOALS 

Conquer Camp Nano  

Figure out what I want to do for my birthday 

Sleep outside - didn't do this but still want to. 

Bake something summery - I actually didn't really bake a lot this month but still also want to do this. 

Try a new hairstyle - Kinda, sort of did this? BUT EVERYTIME I TRY TO DO MY HAIR THERE IS NOT A PONYTAIL HOLDER IN SIGHT. 

Take pictures of fireworks - Somehow didn't do this but I don't wanna talk about it. XP 

Not let this month slip away worrying about everything  - I mean I still worried about stuff but not EVERYTHING. 

So yeah, I didn't meet all of my goals for this month, but it was still a pretty successful month, writing also just so happens to be a time-sucking beast and this month was really busy. 

Anticipating August 

FREEDOM FROM NANO. Well...once I finish the book anyway. (I've got about 5-10k to go) And then I'm either going to take a break or work on editing my Nanowrimo novel. Still undecided. 

SOME AWESOME BLOGPOSTS COMING UP 

Working on my sister's birthday present cause her birthday is one the 21st. And hopefully work on some more DIYS to which I didn't get to do much this month BECAUSE LIKE I SAID WRITING IS A TIME-SUCKING BEAST. 

Hopefully flying with my mom to bring my new sister home in a couple of weeks! (It will be my first time flying if we do which would be super exciting) 

I want to take a couple days away from my computer and phone this week because I've been pretty much glued to them this past week with the end of Nano and everything. 

Continue to work toward conquering my fears and battling my perfectionism. I don't want to continue to be so stressed out by eating healthy and food and everything.  And I know I need to conquer the voice in my head if I want to be mentally and physically healthier. 

And thus concludes my monthly wrap-up post. XD Goodbye, July. Hello August. 

What are you looking back on, what are you looking forward to? 

~Hannah~

Monday, July 24, 2017

H E A L T H Y lifestyle + What I've Learned + What I'm Learning

*fun fact, frozen berries only stay pretty for so long while you're trying to photograph them. 

So today's post is going to be something a bit different, something a bit personal, I'm not going to go super into depth, but I still wanted to share with you guys some things that have been going on in my life these past months, how I'm dealing with them/dealt with them and what I've learned/am still learning.

Basically after months of what I didn't realize were disordered thoughts and behaviors towards food and trying to be healthier, I'm finally learning what a healthy lifestyle actually is. I don't want to label myself as having an eating disorder, but I do know that a lot of my thoughts that have prevented me from treating my body right, and leading me to being afraid of perfectly healthy foods just because I read someone's opinion on them on the internet, and purposefully restricting and depriving myself for no logical reason at all, was neither rational, logical, or healthy.

The reason me trying to eat healthy ended up being unhealthy, and actually potentially dangerous and harmful, was because my approach to it was all wrong, it was fear-based and misguided.

I've learned SO MUCH. I've learned just how beautifully complex God created us and our bodies and how important it is we fuel them properly and take care of them. I've learned so much about nutrition the difference between what actually healthy eating is and what I had convinced myself it was.

I'm learning what being healthy and balanced actually means, and that it shouldn't involve being stressed out and driven insane with perfectionism and misguided, disordered ideas of what is healthy and what is not. I'm learning to recognize when my thoughts aren't rational and when it's just me being a perfectionist, And not letting anxiety get in the way of trusting God, my parents and people who know so much better than I do.

I'm happy to say I'm doing much better now, still eating healthy but actually eating enough calories to have enough energy to do all the things that make summer awesome like biking, swimming, hiking, taking long walks, ect. And working on having a  healthier mindset and attitude towards food, undoing the damage done from not eating enough and treating my body right,and overall becoming healthier and happier than I was before,

I know this isn't something I've posted about before, but I wanted to be real and honest with you guys, Thanks for reading! <3 


~Hannah~ 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

15th Birthday + MEETING GOALS

Okay so LOOK WHAT MY SISTER GOT ME ISN'T IT GORGEOUS 

I turned 15 yesterday, which seems weird and then again not all that weird. XD My dad and several younger siblings and I went hiking about an hour away, we hiked on some trails through the forest and then went down by the beach and it was amazing, I really don't think anyone but God could ever create something so beautiful, so chaotic and yet peaceful at the same time, feeling the tide at your feet and just breathing the air and walking through the sand and thinking that He made all this is really awe-inspiring. 

Emily also needlefelted me an owl and my dad got me roses and dark chocolate and avocados. Because nothing says love like perfectly ripe avocados. XD Also I didn't know what I wanted for my birthday and didn't ask for anything, so my parents are giving me money to spend at Hobby Lobby, hopefully to find some stuff to decorate my room, (more on that in an upcoming post, XD) 

We left at 1:30 and didn't get home until around 6:30, had dinner and then Emily and I took Charlotte for a walk, my sister brought me home cold-brew coffee. (and I wasn't joking when I said I wasn't going to sleep that night, I don't think I fell asleep until around 4:30 in the morning) and we also had toasted coconut ice-cream and chocolate chip oatmeal cookies which was amazing. 

Honestly, yesterday was really awesome and I felt so happy and content as I was writing this  post last night, either that or I was just really hyped up on sugar and caffeine. XD

And now, we ramble. 

MEETING GOALS 

Setting daily goals and doing whatever it takes to meet them every single day, lately I've been learning just how rewarding and fulfilling this is, is it always easy? Heck no, is it totally worth it? Absolutely, 

I'm talking about Camp Nano, (meeting my word goal everyday) but also some personal goals that I've been striving to meet as well, and meeting them has been so rewarding and motivating, even when it's hard and there are days when I'm absolutely sure I can't possibly do it, pushing past feeling stuck and hopeless makes me feel like I could do anything. 

I think the thing about whether or not you fail or succeed is what sort of habits you get into, like, you keep doing what you're doing, at least for me at least, when I fall so behind on writing that I accept the fact I'm going to fail anyway, I don't get any further from there, and then before you know it it gets too late to catch up anyway.

 but when I pick myself back up after falling behind and actually push forward and meet my goals, I want to keep doing that because it's just so much more rewarding and you don't want to let yourself fall back into the cycle again, and it's actually getting easier for me.  I'm currently writing more words each day than I was during Nano back in November in order to catch up after falling behind. And meeting my other goals every day too. Which has been just awesome.

Also guys I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I WANT TO POST ABOUT RIGHT NOW so stay tuned. XD

Do you like hiking? 
Are you anything like me when it comes to meeting goals? 

~Hannah~

Monday, July 10, 2017

July so far + summer loveliness + UPDATES

July has been absolutely crazy so far you guys! AND IT'S ONLY BEEN A WEEK AND A HALF. 

How's Life? 
As I said above, life is crazy. XD But life is also pretty awesome, my siblings and I went swimming yesterday and I rediscovered just how much I love dunking myself underwater and then dramatically springing back up again. (okay I know that sounds weird but for real though, swimming is just awesome and I forget how much I love it) Emily and I have been going for walks everyday and attempting to leash train Charlotte, we had an insane storm last week, a tree fell on top of our garage, (nothing was super damaged thankfully) someone's shed and trampoline blew into our yard, and my bunny had to sleep in a pet carrier in my room because her cage was soaking wet. Along with biking, campfires, fireworks. Yeah, it's totally summer.  

CAMP NANO UPDATES
Basically I've gotta write like there's no tomorrow in order to meet my goal, which is about 5k less than what it started out as, and that's okay. Because I'm confident I can do it. 

I'm slowly resdiscovering my characters after abandoning them in the desert for 7 months, so if they're not exactly on their best behavior, I guess that's understandable. 

So yes, I'm off to track down some writing buds tonight to get as much words written as possible.

Well if you've made it through this jam-packed post, then I applaud you my friend, XD Have an awesome evening (or morning, or day, depending on when you read this, I'm finishing this post at exactly 8:04 PM XD) 

What are one of your goals for this week?
Random; what is your favorite fruit? XD 

~Hannah~

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Photoshoot + IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF CAMP NANO

*photo creds to Sare cause she rocks you guys. XD

So Sare and I dragged our sisters and met up early yesterday to take pics and discuss all of the bookish writing things, we met at a charming little coffee shop. I ended up getting a lavender iced latte since I had never tried anything lavender flavored before and yes it did taste just like flowers and coffee and yet somehow it worked???  Like both my sister and I  actually thought it was really good. xD

On another note, It's the first day of Camp Nano and I have yet to write a single word. *slinks off to cabin to stalk other people's word counts*  *realizes no one has updated their's yet which is a relief* 
I AM SO EXCITED THOUGH I really want to get this month off to a good start and I want this to be a successful Camp Nano, I just really struggle with beginning books, like starting a new story is an opportunity to finally write a completely perfect book that doesn't end up being a total mess. But in reality you guys. You cannot write a perfect book. Let alone a first draft, let alone in A SINGLE MONTH. So that's not what I'm setting out to do this July, I'm here to write to my heart's content, not a perfect book, but hopefully not a book I hate either. Good luck everyone! I'll probably be posting updates throughout the month.

Most interesting coffee flavor you've ever tried? 
Have you started writing yet? (if you're doing Camp Nano that is) 
~Hannah~